T H O M

Nightmare

2012-02-02T11:57:00.002+08:00

A couple weeks back, i had a nightmare. It really wakes me up and taught me a REAL lesson. I dream that i was dead, became a wild soul (considered ghost). I was wandering around the streets, going through people's body... This nightmare took me to another scene, whereby i was hugging my younger sister in front of computer, and i asked her how could she see me, but she did not explain thoroughly... Then in another scene, i met an old lady looks like Minerva McGonagall in Harry Potter, and she explained my condition, its called .....(a scientific term) and i assumed its a term for some Astral Projection(like in the movie Insidious). Then i pop up from my bed, i was tilt like mad... Tears almost came out... LOL... PHEW~

冇得唔認命

2012-01-29T05:33:00.002+08:00

我果然係苦命種~ 唔可以一步登天、唔可以等奇蹟出現。

一定要腳踏实地，努力争取正可以。。。

唔得恨咁多嘅啦~ 邊個叫我生得冇人哋咁好命？

咁就輸細我全部紅包錢咗~ 認命吧啦~

2012

2012-01-16T03:47:00.002+08:00

New year new resolution? No idea~ I dont like to bother about my future, anything could happen in the future, just trying not to screw up things all by myself.

A trip to Penang with the bro's and sis's. Here's a summary about the trip.
Went Gurney for dinner--> 2 JW Black Label provided by Shin and Villi settled by 9 of us, next day to Batu Feringgi for beach and i almost die there, night went Mois, i believe is the number 1 club in Penang, the songs really reminds me of the classical Bar-celona where i used to clubbing there. Because the songs are mostly pop, and i like pop mash-up. Then had the best teh ais in Penang, previously went Penang and found this place called Siew Fong Lye, bring RM10 there and u can eat till you die. Sadly the drinks were RM1 and it raised to RM1.50, last time i challenged Jenhao to order 3 teh ais, and we did finished 6 teh ais together. LOL! Other than that, i do not wish to mention those foolish, childish, disappointing, upsetting things here, its public and its pointless to mention about the past, what done is done. So i hope you guys enjoyed your holiday and have a happy Chinese New Year! And of course have a safe trip back to hometown to visit your loved ones. Otherwise i am free to entertain, because i do not feel like going back this year. XD

Judgement

2011-12-13T15:34:00.002+08:00

This is what i realized recently, most of the people have to be selfish, and they don't give shit about you.
But, when comes to you concerning about them, their turn to being unappreciative, they won't feel thankful either. They think this is how things works.

And with no offense, what i think for those people who stated clearly on the Facebook or blog saying they don't like people to 'judge' them. I think this only happened when we are still in high school, because you have been judged all the time during the schooling days. I strongly believe the reason why we should being judged by others is because we can change for better, the ugly side of us shall be revealed by others who are truly concern about us, they don't criticize us for fun or to tease us. The so called 'judge' for those ignorant, they are being stubborn and wanted to live in their own world so badly. So let it be when they do not receive any comments or feedbacks from others.

Of course, i would not agree with any unreliable feedbacks or comments that hurts without truth in it. Those comments are about to bring you down instead of letting you know where is the fault. Usually came out from a mouth of a jerk or Axxhole, trust me they are. =)

Btw, to clarify my opinions above, is my own opinion and it given me this idea when i found a girl's blog stated not to judge her, otherwise f..k off. And she's already 19 years old XD what a shame~

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2011-12-07T07:01:00.001+08:00

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2011 December

2011-12-03T18:38:00.002+08:00

Last month of the year, we got SPM going on, holiday for most of the people.

I am mentally physically tired. Injuries, wound everywhere, blue blacks, sprains. And im giving myself excuses not to work now. Yet im desperately need money. Terrible... No more b'day celebrating or party, it wont pay me salary, and i have to pay for it. People doesn't understand my financial status, i AM very very poor, don't look at my parents, they dont print money nor generate money. I need to change my phone, my computer. Everything is about money. Screw Jessie J for saying is not about money. =_=

After all, i learnt not to think about her whenever i drink certain amount of alcohol, it seems she is no longer that important anymore, i would not feel anything for her anymore. I got to thanks her for making me this strong all these while.

1 week holiday

2011-10-30T17:08:00.002+08:00

After being screwed by Jessica Chen, I've decided to update something, otherwise she will accuse me for not respecting her as my blog viewer. And she will screw me for not buying her Starbucks tumbler while ANOTHER Jessica CHAI got her touch-sense-table lamp >.< Jessica Chai should be damn proud of it, because i don't give presents. Was in a good mood and a fine dining, that's why i decided to buy her present. Nothing more.

It's been months i did not update my blog, i was busy with my assignments, ***k these assignments, ridiculously complex, supposingly is it a simple work, but the guide she gave us complicates the entire assignment. Alright f*** that as well, whoever curious about my video, please don't, i do not wish any of you have any high hopes on my video, because i am not satisfied with it. To be honest, not happy with the scenes, not happy with the acting. I almost vomit blood to death during the editing of the video. I have no time to complain, so it is none's fault. The decision is in my hand, i made wrong decisions.

Regarding her, her, her, her and her.
1st HER, i liked her a lot because of special feeling

2nd HER, i am interested in her, trying to understand her better, but she's stubborn in keeping all her emotional things herself, i can't approach her properly anymore. It's my fault for giving such feeling to her at the first and ended without say anything.

3rd HER, she were immature during that time i guess? I believe i did not do anything to her.

4th HER, she's one of my good friend, not considered best friend because usually she don't bother about other stuff, frankly speaking she's selfish, so i also get used to it already. I believe she's still not good in handling her problems, hopefully she understand and learn how to handle problems and also concern people around her.

5th HER, she's almost the same like 4th HER, and i'm always available to be her listener, i strongly believe she's very weak and fragile when she met problems, she takes it TOO serious and ended up torture herself psychologically. I hope she will get more mature and learn how to be independent, learn how to let go problems and not getting involve. And of course, appreciate what she currently have, she have everything, everything better than me.

If She's is reading this post, please do not get offended, could be you, could be someone else. I do not wish to mention any names here. Just wishing you guys good luck and if you feel you are one of the SHE, hope you will change for better. All the best =)

Regards,
Thom Wong

Ok i'm not dying, just trying to be more formal with the last part. LOOL

逃避

2011-08-15T04:36:00.002+08:00

感觉很奇怪，她不再是她，稍微变了~可是都不重要，因为我根本就没有资格讨论这个话题。。。

看得出，也很明显，四个字简直就是写在她的额头上就是 ‘毫无好感‘ 给我读的。。。

虽然我很早就知道答案，可是还是同样那句，顺其自然吧~

某位朋友问我，为什么你没有再联络她了？
我直接告诉他，我‘衰‘了。。。静静地等缘分来吧~

我已经没有喝酒了。。。算得上是戒酒吧~
只从我生日到现在，都不想喝酒了。。。每当喝酒就会想起她。。。不要问我为什么，我真的不知道，
就算问我为什么选择她，而不是另一个的她，我都回答 ‘她特别的地方，就是她给我一种说不出口/不知道如何解释的感觉‘。

七月三十一日

2011-07-31T15:00:00.002+08:00

今天起身突然发现，这个地方真的没有我要留恋的一点，不但是朋友，学业，家庭，甚至是...

我明白你的苦衷，一直看到的就只有我死残烂打，你却在针扎为了保存一切，不希望有所改变。。

这就是命运，缘分吧?

彻彻底底对这个地方没有兴趣了。。。

Update (Canto)

2011-07-14T17:24:00.003+08:00

唔好意思，好耐冇update了～

因為近日都冇心情寫有關我近日既事情，譬如我病了，煩緊某D嘢，逼我自己做選擇，講咗一D我唔應該講既嘢，放假都放到咁唔開心。唸唸下裡整個月跟本喺度折磨緊我~ 到底我做錯咗乜嘢吖．．．我好心苦啊．．．暗戀一個人一定要咁唔開心咩？我唔明白．．．我好唔忿氣，點解咁多年來我始終都唔敢去面對，究竟係我唔夠膽？定係她跟本就冇打算俾我機會？

有人問我，點解我會鍾意人哋？我回答她，係因爲我不知不覺就對她有一种好特別既感覺，我自己都唔知道點樣㗎解釋．．．

2011-07-04T23:31:00.002+08:00

Sien~ I think im gonna get used to putih putih diao by people already~ Walaooo... EEEEMMMMOOOO!

2011-06-24T03:52:00.000+08:00

真好笑～读回以前的东西，让我想回那时一杀那的开心。我也不知道是哪位朋友看回我写的东西。。。我想，应该没有机会了吧～

That's all

2011-06-16T03:25:00.002+08:00

At last, i done with all my shits~ Settled down. Assignments, Police report, Sergeant interview... Left few things to do, That includes few birthday present =_="

After all, what am i gonna do now? Slacking, hanging around doing nothing. Work? I have only 1 month+ wtf am i gonna do with it?

Ohh~! 1 more sweet thing. Brother Hean is coming back on 17th which is Friday from Taiwan. Awesome~ Can't wait to see that kiddo shaping up his body and stamina... Coming back with a brand new him. Proud of him... =)

I realized i'm a good entertainer despite being funny in front of people, i'm famed as an entertainer ,which can accompany people, humiliate by people in order to give them happiness and spending time doing irrelevant things with people. I guess that's how people appreciate me.
Nevertheless, who to blame? Me. Haha~ It's ridiculous because i am the one who is soft-hearted and easily get persuaded. I do not think that is called as 'kind', even if it is 'kind' i don't see being kind will be beneficial, because people do take for granted as well. It's just a personality that can make people feel better instead of increase credibility or earn money. Screw it =_=

2011-06-08T19:50:00.001+08:00

我依然过不了自己那关，我很失败骗不了自己。。。也不想后悔，也不要对不起任何人。

某个朋友问我，＂你要为了自己往前走，还是回头走回同一条路？＂我很想回答走回那条路，可是我说不出口，因为我不想辜负我朋友的好意，只好答他＇向前走＇。闭在心里说不出口那一刻，果然是很辛苦。。。

我不要只是什么回忆，我要的包括现在和以后。。。我一直都祈望着有好的结果，而不是停留在那里却没有答案。。。

我不知道当年的我，有没有让人感到失望，可是现在的我要把握任何一个机会。。。

想不通 - 你

2011-06-05T05:37:00.004+08:00

这几天，你不断让我感到困扰，而且彻彻底底地难倒我了。。。我真的不知道。。。不知道指的是有还是没有，我还是别人，信还是不信。回答简单的问题都迟迟不回，一直在逃避我。我很想知道答案，你都从来没有澄清过。

唯一的只有当年的拒绝我。其余的，我都没有追问过，根本就没有期盼好的答案。怪就怪我没有信心。我猜不透也猜得很累，才会选择走斜方向。

又想表达，又不想让你知道。。。我从来没有这样看你，可是你总是怀疑我，甚至不理我。。。我尽量体谅你的感受，可是你都不领情。。。

那么你有想过我的感受吗。。。？
难道真的是我对不起你在先。。。？

你到底在想什么。。。？

你希望什么。。。？

可以告诉我吗。。。？

I really wished you would tell me, you are forcing me, and i don't seem to have any options anymore... It's really pain...

Just reply my text, and i'll understand, or else its alright...

My 20th Birthday

2011-05-27T11:05:00.002+08:00

I wasn't in the mood to talk about it, mostly suffering than enjoying. >.<
Drink drank drunk~ Vomit like mad~ Screw that part
Important part is, i want to thank all of you sincerely for being kind all the while, would spend few minutes time of your life wishing me, attending a lousy drinking session like this. And i have to thank the bro from Taiwan yo~ Hope he's doing great over there. And one of the sis who text me an essay-long message to wish me. LOL!
And the rest of the bro's, LONG LIVE BROTHERS! SALUTE!

Since January 2011, this date, 23th of May had become very meaningful to me. Not because of me myself. Some one far more important than myself.

A simple symbol of =) could actually represents so many thing, lots of expression and emotion in it.
I guess this is how things works. =)

Every of my birthday was the same except 2011, because i found the other meaning of it.

Well i can't share it out here, it's not the right time and the right place to talk about stuff like that.
But don't worry, i'm doing well, everything's fine =)

最近你看起来都不是很开心，无论是不是我造成都好，先再次说声＇对不起＇。不知道今天的你是否开心还是在掩饰自己的伤心，让我感到很不安。只希望你能把过去停留在过去，把现在迈向未来。。。还是那句，无论在哪里，我都会支持你。

你不在

2011-05-22T02:20:00.001+08:00

你不在当我最需要爱你却不在
无尽等待像独白般难挨
你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在
我受了伤再偷偷好起来
但你不在不在
时间在按下许多次快门
沉默里听见转动的秒针
一个人吃饭这个凌晨
孤单一人分
你低声说你有别人
我的话筒只有自己的体温
怎样认真也不一定成真
你说的对我不得不承认

Where was you when i needed you the most...? So let it be~ I deserve a better, same goes to you...

两难

2011-05-02T06:45:00.002+08:00

This song have been stuck in my mind since one of my best friend introduced to me when i was form 3. More than 70% of the lyrics completely represents me. Suits me well. The Bold ones. It's been years, but you just don't show anything at all... Till now, i'm trying to change my mind and you are answering again... The most suffering part it is the idea that planted in my mind, which i do not know how long it will stay...... I only want answers, i do not want to stuck in this maze which i will never able to escape. I tried once, i tried twice, i tried more than thrice... I'm really tired of it...

天空一片如浪花的云朵
云朵瞎扯着我放肆玩耍的笑容
你懂不懂我上次说什么
我总是表现得如此从容
有不禁要怀疑这么做是对是错
考验着我的喜怒哀愁 Oh~
又有谁尝过
这种藏在心里放不出的温柔
还要再忍受多久
眼前难题我不能解
该怎么做才最完美
预见我走入两难的困境内
问自己幸福能不能给
或者退让好过一点
好不好
Give me one more chance
To be a better man
电话声回荡在脑海中
那头传来你的低沉声音对我说
Love me baby,hold me baby
考虑着有了我你够不够
心情像无底般的空洞
好像只有你能够填补这寂寞
Love me baby,hold me baby
我能懂你为何这么说
又有谁尝过
这种藏在心里放不出的温柔
Love me baby,hold me baby
还要再忍受多久
眼前难题我不能解
该怎么做才最完美
预见我走进两难的困境内
问自己幸福能不能给
或者退让好过一点
好不好
Give me one more chance
To be the better man
试着让自己接受
他一定能让她好过
看见她脸上带着甜
幸福围绕身边
我体会安慰的滋味
眼前难题我不能解
(告诉我)该怎么做才最完美
预见我走进两难的困境内
(我不能给)问自己幸福能不能给
或者退让好过一点
好不好
Give me one more chance
To be the better man
眼前难题我不能解
该怎么做才最完美
预见我走进两难的困境内
问自己幸福能不能给
或者退让好过一点
好不好
I can be the one
I'm still the one for you
Oh yes you baby
I'm still the one
I'm still the one

Birthday?

2011-04-30T05:33:00.002+08:00

No offense to my friends. I am seriously going to get crazy soon because of April-May birthdays. Realized so so so many friends their birthday are on April-May. In April, i've attended more than 4 birthdays. Of course money will have to spend, efforts are meant to pay, and of course attendance are most important and compulsory as a friend of mine. So, instead of hiding at home, i have to attend. Money splashing everywhere, time spending all on it, even effort paid on it, especially on you-know-who's birthday. It's the most disappointed birthday celebration i've ever attend, paid extra money? Nvm la! paid extra effort? I'm willing to do so! So why i'm so upset about it? Because he/she doesn't appreciate our effort at all, never fail to disappoint us. Once was last 2 years, this year is the 2nd time. Repeating mistakes are never forgivable. That's how i think. Chances are given, but the results screwed. Well, nothing else to say except staying away from ... I'm not born to save your asses, i don't born to pay efforts, i don't have to... But i did, no more next time.

around 10 hours ago i guess, one of my primary school friend birthday, take it as a gathering as well, it's a simple and good celebration, i don't expect much at all. But everything goes smoothly. We are not longer kids, we don't throw a party bash to celebrate a birthday. Feels so mature to celebrate in a plain and simple way. I think it's fine, we don't pay money together, we don't argue for money. So why not? If it's my birthday, i rather pay the money by myself than sharing the bill, sharing a bill is exactly sharing a burden and spreading conflicts.

Done expressing my feelings towards 'birthday'.

2 weeks holiday and i've done NOTHING, except watching movies everyday. Fk~ Even my assignment done around only 15%. I'm concerning her more than anything else. Now it's my turn to get panic O.O
Oh yeah~ just thought of something to talk about... I realized the word 'secret' doesn't exist at all, quotes from all the movies, when they say nothing is guaranteed except death, i have to agree with it, no one will able to guarantee YOUR secrets will not spread by him/her once you told him/her. I really have to look thoroughly and carefully into people's mind, what the hell are they thinking? Why can't they thought of keeping promises and secrets? Human are really weak at it... Forget about it... Secrets are also meant to kept to ourselves, it's my fault for sharing to the wrong person. I'm so proud that i actually can keeps secrets and seal it in my brain, or else lots of life would screw up by my words with a simple sentence. I will never share anything important except people who are important to me. That's what i learnt this week...

Time to rest. Good night~

Wondering is she having a good sleep...?

Lazy

2011-04-18T05:38:00.012+08:00

I've been busy rushing assignments, till last Thursday. And i'm lazy to update as well. Even 'stalker' also making noise asking me to update my blog. Well, recently my life's great and i'm having 2 weeks holiday. And... Last week went Penang with the buddies, and some stuff happened. No joke the char kuey teow over there is good, 3 days 2 night, i spent 2 days 1 night to tried THREE different char kuey teow, the 3rd one is the best and is the most random one, when we was about to leave so we cincai eat at a some random hawker center. LOL~ Never go so-called War Museum, blood sucking place. Paid RM20 to feed mosquitoes and seen NOTHING. All the fake stuff... I was expecting to check out REAL antique guns or tanks and stuff like that, ended up i saw plastics, wood and plas-wood. And of course, went to Bukit Ferringhi beach, paid RM130 for so-called package la~ Including Para-sail, banana boat and jet-ski.

And April fool sucks! God must be kidding with my benz, on the way to LCCT to pick up my parents, ended up sitting in the car towed on a tow truck back home. Screw my parents for buying 2nd/3rd/4th/5th/6th hand car without completely repairing all the stuff, reason: SAVE MONEY. Jimat la jimat la~ Save all the unnecessary money, stupid~ Common sense la~ If your car tyre is grip-less, do you want to risk your life for few hundred bucks? Dumb enough to save money in that kind of way ==
And now my Proton Wira is joking with me again, he's not in a good mood, sometimes he moves, sometimes he don't. How to know whether he's in a good mood? If you are not able to start the damn car, he's moody for sure. Fk these cars seriously~ I rather drive Alfa Romeo my previous manual transmission car, older than proton Wira and Benz, but engine, radiator is much more better than both Wira and Benz, except the tyre because i'm the only one driving it, so my parents thought of no point changing the tyre, because they don't drive it. What a shit weh~ KNS~
Life's tough, soon whoever study at Taylors or often use LDP will be able to see one fella like me cycling to University, screw the cars.

Alright~ Time to sleep~

I fall for you not because of your look, it's because who you are
Can't wait to see you, sweet one =) Hee

MIA

2011-03-18T02:30:00.002+08:00

Wow~ Just realized my last post was about 2 weeks ago. I'm a lousy blogger LOL~ Alright~
Last friday went to SAC(Sky Adventure) Orientation Camp 2011 at Dusun Eco Resort(around Karak), was a bit disappointed with the icebreaking session, to be honest here IN MY BLOG, it is so meaningless and dangerous to play such icebreaking game in a wet place, yes don't think much, i fell down, not serious but the moment i fell down, hit my mood towards the icebreaking session.

Overall the camp was fine, it's much more relax comparing with the camps i attended before, such as QM camp, Kadet camp. Although SAC camp contained of obstacle training as well, i'm not trying to show off or anything, the obstacle training was boring and easy comparing with previous obstacle training i faced last time. Of course, screw the food Dusun Eco Resort provided, under my expectation, just to fill my stomach with something. Didn't get stung by mosquito's, the environment there is quite cool thou is full of insect. LOL~ (imagining Melvyn got freaked out and screamed when his face touched the spider web)

Meeting lots of members from Subang Taylors SAC-ians, of course i'm in the team with few of them, my team got the highest marks among 6 teams. Kinda proud of it, but end up we don't get any prizes or trophy for that, just a simple basic ratings for us. The best part during the camp was Villi, Melvyn and i doing silly things together in the 'abandoned girls toilet'. We looked like some drug addict. LOL~!

Nowadays I've been stuck in the middle of the night, doing nothing. Insomnia kills >.<
And also, i gotta learn how to letting go and trying to be independent, i'm getting sick of relying on people who are not reliable. No offense, especially those with their girlfriend, comparing the differences between me and their situations, because i'm single doesn't meant i'm stupid and i do not understand how crazy to act like that, in another way round, why not i'm the one single that's the reason why i'm clear about the situation while you guys are blinded by some reason? I just don't get it, what makes you guys think negatively especially about relation. Trusting each other and be fair to each other should be the most basic part in a relationship, Yes? No? Geeez~

好累...

2011-03-08T01:38:00.001+08:00

你问我、为什么那么烦？我根本就答不出口。。。你希望我不会做错决定而后悔，我根本就不知道该不该做。。。给我希望的是你，让我绝望的也是你。。。我真的很矛盾。。。很无奈。。。一直以来你都没有暗示过，也没有阻持我。是我死缠烂打，一厢情愿。还是我太笨？

我的生活显然愈来愈可悲。。。在任何方面都在跌落。。。我的运气烂透了。。。怎么样都不会回到平均点。。。这个时候是最好打击我的时候，要斩草除根随时都可以。。。

To You

2011-02-26T03:05:00.002+08:00

If you realized, i'm actually viewing your profile every single day every single moment whenever i am free, i doesn't hope you get pissed off or sad for something else even though you doesn't want to tell me. But all i can do is to keep you happy and try to be your listener, that is all i can do. I know there's the possibility that what effort i paid will be nothing in the end of the day. But still i will try my best to talk to you and keep you happy. I really hope you can stay happy every single day every single second. Someday i might not be the one beside you whom can make you happy, but for now i will and i'm still. Give yourself more confident and always be strong, stronger than whenever we teasing each other i guess? =)

I will wait for you

2011 incidents

2011-02-19T03:40:00.003+08:00

I guess this year isn't the year all we wanted or we expected. I'm one of the example, my family including me facing more than 5 difficulties... After all i've been working in Neway, Puchong. My effort and my blood money wasted on today 18th February 2011, today was a very tough day in my life.

I lost my shoe bag containing my wallet with IC, Driving license, Public Bank ATM, Maybank ATM, RM400+ and my mom's credit card; of course with my new football boots(wore once yesterday)in the shoe bag. Total rough cost around RM700.
First of all, it was my fault for leaving my stuff in my car.
Secondly, my great car which is a Proton Wira(Made In Malaysia), the alarm works, but the lock isn't fully works, it only locked 3 of my door and left 1 unlocked.
Thirdly, i am so regret that i went to Cheras, no offense, for me Cheras is a terrible place even worst than KL Central, some people over there are weird enough to make you gone crazy.
Back to the story, the reason of why i'm at Cheras is because i drive my mom to visit my brother which is lying on the bed(Car Accident caused brain damage) in HUKM(Hospital Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia)
One of the terrible place in Cheras, the environment INSIDE the hosp was VERY POOR, don't get conned by the outer appearance of the hospital, it is not as nice as inside.
I parked my Made.In.Msia Proton car at the parking area(outdoor+need to pay) and after around 1 hour, my mom and i walked to my car and i realized my driver's door loosen, and my shoe bag missing. I was very pissed off and at the same time very sad, felt so helpless, when i was stressing about it, my mom went to pay for the parking ticket, and i saw this malay fella looking at me for quite long and i looked back at him, and he started to walk faster to his car then he drove away quickly with his P.Wira(WJB 2954 exactly the same color Maroon Red with mine), i suspect he's the fella who stole my stuff in my car, i chase him and it is obvious that he is trying to run away from me by using the 1-way road to drive to the entrance of the hospital, and i followed. I can't wait to stop him and checked his car boot, after checking his boot, he closed the boot and took out his wallet and FLASH(which i only had a glimpse on it) his police ID, i couldn't have enough time to read his name not even the police logo but the first word 'Korporal'. Then he started to make his story and so-called guide me what should i do(which is nonsense, he asked me to report police behind the hospital got one 'pondok police'). I'm still very pissed at him and i told my mom i must follow this fella no matter he's going back home or what. I did follow him, at the first he try to dump me by driving faster but end up i'm able to track him, until i followed him to a 1-way shop lot area, he stopped twice, the second time he stopped i'm forced to move along, so i decided to turn 1 more round around the shop lot and *puff* his car wasn't there anymore. Went to Sg.Besi to report police because i couldn't find Cheras police station.
After all the shit, here comes another one, my Made In Malaysia Proton Wira started to get hot, hot as in my radiator overheating. What a wonderful day i had, my mom and i called for tow car and went back my home with tow car. Today is my f***ing lucky day.

Everything doesn't seems right this year. I'm lucky and glad that my friends being such supportive, and the buddies asked me out just now, now i feel much more better.

The RM400 was meant to buy something for someone, but now i lost it... Is this the fate between us? Or it is all about my luck? I got nothing left but you...

Nothing else i can do but...
Let It Be - The Beatles

Work

2011-02-08T08:05:00.002+08:00

Don't suspect, yes i am working, sorry for not updating d'blog. The main reason is because the job i'm currently doing is a night shift job, a terrible working time. So i'm more lifeless during this period. Work starts at 8pm(which i have to wake up at 5.30/6pm) then ends at 5am(with 'overtime' until 6am+ due to stuff that i haven't finish OR requested by the authorized staff to do something extra).

Base on my experience, this is the toughest job i ever done before. My first job was a P1wimax promoter, which is not directly under P1 company, but some distributor/agent. During that period, i work with my buddy Justin, when i mean buddy, you can imagine how we WORK together, maybe both sitting at the booth and facing a laptop with the demo P1wimax watching Youtube's video. LOL.

The second job was Pyramid Sushi Zanmai waiter, i realized my job getting tougher and tougher. This job wasn't supposed to be tough, but the goddamn manager made it tough for us. Forcing us to have 'overtime' without pay(yes i know i was dumb enough to listen to that bastard) from 1pm to 11pm(thanks to the overtime without pay until 12am+ latest 1am+) In any field of work, the boss/manager will try their best...... to SAVE money through worker's salary, not to try their best to earn more money from the customers. So, to be harsh, these people are bunch of assholes who focuses on saving money than taking care of workers. I swear if i met these people again i'll definitely sue them no matter how.

Currently i'm working at a KTV lounge(which is 1 of those big KTV dominating company, as you guys know there is not much of it) The pay are quite good for me, but we as the workers have to sacrifice extra time and energy, 1 waiter have to do more than 6 jobs. Not just serving drinks, but serving customers(taking order, explain the entrance fees even most of the customers ignores, argue with the customers because they did not expect the bill would be higher, and whatever customer requested such as they need rock glass, forks, and spoons). After all the customers left the room, cleaning plates and glass and food/water they spilled, then cleaning the toilet. Here comes the most important part, i didn't know that Females prefer throwing their 'pads' in the toilet floor or rubbish bin without wrapping with anything(DISGUSTING). While some guys i suspect their 'birdie' got something wrong, they pee around in the toilet, they can't aim, i guess it is because 'Malaysian' what a shame >.< Then we have to lift up all the tables on the sofa to sweep and mob the floor. Then carry it down and arrange it, lastly, filling all the tissues in the tissue box and ashtray which some customers prefer to throw their wet tissue or anything other than cigratte's ash.

Just for your info, please do not go KTV lounge if you did not bring enough money like you did not prepare enough money to go club, it is almost the same. Guess what? I realized people could spent rm3000++ in a KTV room which fitted 24 customers, more than 20 jugs of beers, cost them rm3450. I was the one showing them their bill, and the fella shocked, because he thought was supposed to be rm1000+, fyi, he's a 'bapa ayam'(meaning a person's job which is taking care of prostitutes and sex trading). What a loser~ == I faced bunch of 'Made in China' prostitutes, till i wanted to vomit, most of them their appearance like 30+ even if they are 20+, my god~ Why can't the police do something about it. Speaking of police, polices love to 'kecek'(something like cheating/forcing) alcoholic beverages such as beer, scotch whiskeys, whiskeys, brandy's, cognac. They will request for it and expect us to give them discounts(at least 20% depends on the post of the police), if he's a low graded police, beer will do. The higher grade police with higher post, they request for whiskeys or brandy's. You think Malays don't drink? Too naive! I believe they asked some Chinese friends to 'dapao'(take-away) Bak Kut Teh(contain of pork) for them to eat also got la~

Well, there's much more to talk about in this topic, basically that's all about my job and base on my personal inventory-experience. And of course, Wish all of you a Prosperous Chinese New Year.

到底，其实，我，在你心目中是什么地位？我希望至少我可以得到一个答案，不想要一厢情愿。你，能老老实实地告诉我吗？

依然是你

2011-01-12T05:03:00.002+08:00

我自己知道自己事，机会是＇零＇。可是难过是因为你难过，心疼是因为你心疼，失望是因为你失望。看到最近你都不好过，替你难过，心疼，失望。这些只是我能办到的范围内，当然我也很希望总有一天你会把你的开心或伤心的事都跟我分享，这样就很足够了。

我已经不祈望你会给我很好的反应，只要你开心就好。我答应过你的就不会反口，只要你需要我的帮忙，一年，一月，一天，一时，一分，一秒，我都会在你身边，就算我不在；精神上我也会支持你，只要你告诉我，无论你要利用我，还是害我，也是我自己心甘情愿的。。。

相信是你，每次在我最低落的时候陪我走过，我希望我也是你其中一个;陪你走过你最艰难的路。你的存在让我感到非常安心，想念你却不敢打电话给你，想一下和回忆一下你就够了。。。

Random Thoughts

2011-01-06T03:40:00.003+08:00

This is what happen when i got nothing to do and nothing to think, out of nowhere, this 'thing' appeared in my mind. Don't ask me, Yes, i AM lifeless! LOL!

In this Town, in order to be Takers, you gotta be Faster, almost Unstoppable, and never walk like a Tourist; because you're not having Gulliver's Travels.

I was wondering why recently the name of these movies are short and almost can't get it. Takers, Faster? Fockers? Er er er? Is it possible there will be some movies named as Better? Cheaper? Smarter? How about some horror movies named as Haunter? Oh yeah~ My Ex: Haunted LovER?

Town is a movie about a bunch of robbers from this specific 'Town' famous in illegal arm dealing, one of the robber which is the main character fell in love with the bank manager after they robbed her bank. (in the movie so-called romance not really exist, i'm not sure with the Novel) 6/10

Takers, again, a bunch of smarter robbers, end up betrayed by 1 of their former member. Boooring~ Because the Hongkies are better in robbery/police movies, they prefer tactics/strategy than using high technology stuff like Takers. 5.5/10

Death Bell, Please! Do not watch this movie! It is not suitable for ANYBODY, because it sucks! It's not a horror Korean movie, it's about a revenge for a girl student's death. Thats it, nothing else, don't expect any ghost, totally bullshit! 3/10

The last movie i'm gonna talk about is the Gulliver's Travels. F this movie! Damn it! My friends and me wasted 14bucks if i'm not mistaken to watch such nonsense(for kids) movies. Screw Jack Black and Jason Segel, especially Jack Black as Gulliver. Because the first time i saw Jack Black and i'll never forget this person, was in the movie of Year One. Retarded! 3/10

Oh God~ Please grant me more GOOD movies, i mean SERIOUSLY GOOD movies please!

Short update

2011-01-05T07:42:00.003+08:00

First of all, Happy birthday to my Bro, Felix Teoh, my God~ He's 20 this year! He started his age of 20+ already. Damn~! Getting old XD

Had a karaoke session at Neway with bunch of buddies, they enjoy their beer, i enjoy my song. Glad that i didn't drink at all, because i was headache and also i'm sick of beer because "you-know-when" i drank too much. I'm not very tired, but the tiredness at this level is FUN! As in it worths! While on the way back, i listen this song on radio, and i just realized i actually heard it from Facebook. I love it, enjoy the song!

Sorry love, for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time
Won't make any difference tonight
But I'm hoping "im sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

2011

2011-01-01T12:44:00.005+08:00

After slacking for so long did not update d'blog, i'm here wishes all of you a

happy new year and may luck be with you!

Je voudrais passer par toute cette douleur
Prenez une balle directement à travers mon cerveau
Oui, je mourrais pour toi, bébé
Mais vous ne pourrez pas faire la même chose

Completely free

2010-12-14T02:23:00.003+08:00

Back from Australia and Singapore, sorry for the late update. But i just can't get a good mood to blog, except for today =)

Went Australia for 18 days including 4 days in Gold Coast. Firstly, everyday eat, food such as Vietnamese Beef noodle, no joke, it is the best beef noodle i ever had. Tried Kangaroo meat, sounds awkward and disgusting but no joke, it taste something like beef but rougher than beef. And of course, abalone. Last but not least, their dim sum(they called it yum-cha instead of eat dim sum) is the best dim sum i ever had in my life, because made by hongkies and bloody fresh prawn(for the 'ha gao')

Then, walk around the City, a place like KL but of course it is much more cleaner and quiet. They don't take bus, they take Trams and Trains, you will be able to see lots of bicycle, they didn't banish cycling like us. LOL!

Add on, of course i did visited the park/zoo thing, first time see Koala with my own eyes, they are bloody cute because they can simply hang on the tree with 1 hand and sleep like that. LOL~ And Kangaroo as well, they look like dog or a bigger version of rabbit with a face of donkey LOL. I didn't see the bigger size of Kangaroo, they only presented the small ones.

The rest of the 4 days in Gold Coast was CRAZY. Played all the rides in Dreamworld, White Water World and Movie World. End up on the 4th day i can't handle anymore, headache @@

Shows in Movieworld like Stunt Drivers is the bomb.Awesome drifters!

Fame

2010-12-01T16:30:00.002+08:00

Out of nowhere, i got this idea, a silly one; i guess? had planted in my head. The problems caused by fame/famous.

In order to become famous, firstly, you must know how to socialize very well, a broad and wide network. Then, things gets worst, you will hunger for fame because you want more and more, and also compete than the others. You might not have much true friends or best friends, because most of the friendship were meant to be in your plan to build your fame. Your soul partner(boyfriend or girlfriend) will not expose to the public, because you are afraid of your partner spoil your images or impressions towards the public. And i had no idea why they wanted to be famous so badly? Watch too much drama i guess? Or crazy for some superstar or rock star they admires?

I'm glad that i do not know much people like this, and i will not have such awkward person be my soul partner. Because they don't really appreciate you.

Just my own opinion, what i seen, what i heard and what i felt.

Btw, i'm currently living good in Melbourne, Australia. Although the temperature sometimes cold, sometimes hot. My weight gained from 52kg to 55kg, you guys will be able to see a fatter version of me when i'm back^^

想

2010-11-27T00:36:00.001+08:00

今天，奥洲的天气很冷～时冷时热～时灰时白～没有固定的东西，除了我的想法。。。

你最近还好吗。。。？好想念你的脸，也想念你的声音. 暂时分隔两地不能见到你，你应该没有烦恼吧～; 还有多少天。。。？还有多久才能看到你。。。？

虽然我不知道你有没有关心这些问题，可是我只是想让你知道，我很在意。除了你，我什么都想不到，也写不出。。。

每天看着你的照片总觉得我有点疯狂，可是除了你的照片，我什么都不想看也不想念。。。告诉自己要冷静; 却又无法不想你。。。

FREE

2010-11-19T03:26:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my last paper which is Moral Studies! Full of words readied in my head to express right now.

Around 1 hour ago i reach home, and i saw few people(3) standing outside my house, so i park my car then walk out from my house, at the same time the fella walk towards me, he said that his friend tried to avoid my dog(puppy) end up crashed his OLD Proton Saga at my neighbor's divider, then he asked me so how to settle, and i asked them to wait, because i do not have the ability to pay them or whatever it is, so i told my dad about it and he's sleeping like a pig doing nothing on his bed, as useless as usual == My mom ask my sister and me stay in the house and ignore them, i was like "Wtf? At least you reply them by telling them nothing we can do about it or ask them report police?" End up my dad woke up and try to ask what they want, the victim's friend speak in a impolitely way, he said that his friend crashed because of OUR DOG, so we should do something about it, then my dad said this is an accident, nothing else we can do, we tried our best to stop the dogs sneaking out through the gate, it is THEIR responsibility to drive properly. Then the fella replied by saying his FRIEND can be crazy, so if anything happens i really cannot help you(meaning my dad+my family), very obvious that fella try to threaten my dad, so my dad get slightly pissed off and said whatever it is, if you try to be funny, i'll look for you, not you look for me. On this world, not only you know friends, i do know friends as well, i'm not a good guy either. *wooo~ fierce! LOL*

Then the victim started to talk, he said he's not trying blame us, he's trying to ask for courtesy(meaning pay him la), my dad asked what he want, he said i don't know, maybe half of the repair cost, my dad said no way, it is not fully our fault, if u wan, take RM200 or the dog( because his car damage i think cost around RM2000, so instead of paying them RM1000 why don't give them the dog and let them do whatever they want? SWT~!) Then the victim get unhappy and said sorry for disturbing in a sarcastic tone. Then ciao already~

If he can drive properly, they can just bang the dog, then we will keep quiet, because it's OUR dog and non of our fault. BUT, now the problem is they can't avoid the dog in a proper way, meaning they can't drive safely, do WE have to pay any responsibility for your mistake and our dog? Remember, it is only an animal, imagine if you could not avoid and bang someone, who's fault is that? Even if the fella you bang standing on the middle of the street you still have to avoid him, or else this counted as you can't drive safely to avoid accident meaning YOUR FAULT!

Btw, i live at PJ, if you met case like this, better ignore these people, they might be some con group try to earn money with metal scrap(OLD SAGA)

Final of Finals

2010-11-12T20:37:00.002+08:00

Ahh~ Next week is my final exam for my final semester of my foundation. time past like a blink of eyes. Btw, i really do not have the mojo/mood/ohm to blog about interesting things happened recently. Hope my readers and friends be patience, i promise i'll write on right after my exam. =)

长大后

2010-11-05T14:24:00.003+08:00

在成长的交叉线中，有的选了女人，有的选了兄弟和有的选了学业。矛盾的是，我羡慕他们不需要读书，不需要那么理兄弟的感受, 只需要做工赚钱，拍拖. 当然，我也替他们感到悲哀，大多数的都在做工了，有的怀孕了，也有的不知所踪。。。他们就是没有读书的缘分，他们有的是爱情缘分。

我看二十个人里面，只有我和四五个还在读书而已。。。其他十多个做工。

而我选了兄弟和我自己。因为我一无所有; 无忧无滤。

Tiring day

2010-10-29T04:22:00.002+08:00

From yesterday morning 5am, i slept for only 4 hours, 9am woke up and went class. And NOW, i just reach home, now is 4.30AM. which mean...*lost count* i've been outing for 19 hours and 30min. Another 30min meaning i lack of around 8 hours of sleep. Nevertheless, i just came back from karaoke session with my friends at Neway. I can feel my throat all along my oesophagus (esophagus) rougher than a sand paper O.o

It's been a long time i never spend my whole day MENTALLY and PHYSICALLY altogether in one day. Phew~ Such tiring day.

Whenever i sing in the karaoke, it reminds me of a lot of things, especially the days i sing through the phone, difficulties i've met and so on... All in one attacked my thinking. I miss .............

Alright cut the emo crap.

Good news is, my house is under renovate, my house roof is changing thou i do not know change as in appearance or quality, i hope it has the function to anti heat. Damn... Nowadays the weather is so damn hot... Secondly, inside my house all the peeled wall had been repainted today. Great~ I do not have to see my room looks like a room covered by 20 years old wall anymore. It is so clean and white!
Another good news is, my parents decided to repair my RM8.8k 13 years old Alfa Romeo 146 Sedan, i hope it can be fully repaired, especially the bald tires (tyres). LOL~ Or else someday it's gonna kill me on some wet highway >.<
Last but not least, no more assignments and presentations! Screw them all! Left one only! Yay

Bad news is, my room is very dusty because of the paint, it is so powdery and my bed's surface is full of the powder... How am i gonna sleep later?! Nooo~
Second bad news it, i only have 1 more assignment, MEANING FINAL EXAM OF MY FOUNDATION IS COMING. NOOO~
Linked from the second, my foundation is ending soon! I'll have to separate with my friends >.<
After my final exam, i was suppose to go Australia on the 22nd of Nov, AirAsia flight delayed, such loser == I'll have to leave earlier on 21st of Nov. Sad case~

I believe my formula of life "take it or leave it" remains the best to describe everything. I'm wrong in certain problem, so i LEAVE IT to others to decide whether they want TAKE IT or not. Meaning i admitted i am wrong, but do i worth you forgive me? You taking it or you leaving it? In the end it is a 2-sided decision, it has to be agree by both side, or else it won't work out. Asking for forgiveness is a tough barrier between people, it is either you do not have the rights to ask or you have the rights to ask. I forgive for some reason, i do not ask for forgiveness for some reason as well. Recently, i've worked with this girl and i realized she is very irresponsible and yet she do not know things not going well is because of her fault. Chances are given by my kind friend, but she screw up everything by herself. In this situation, i do agree with my friend that she have no rights to blame the others. No one to blame but herself. What a waste... My friend is such a nice guy, i do not blame him for allowing her to join us. I am PERSONALLY dislike her attitude, simple as that. But what done is done. I'll leave it.

Here's a real joke of the day happened just now during evening, my friends and me was having drinks outside our college.

Out of sudden, we heard the sound of fart *farted*
Without hesitation, my friend stared at me and said:"You farted right?! You son of a b****!"
I replied him in an innocent yet embarrassing look:"Wtf?! It wasn't me!!"
Then i whispered him:"Wtf! It was the guy behind you! You shout so loud some more, OMG!"
Then my friends and me laughing like mad and my eyes can't hold the tears, it took us 5minutes to calm ourselves down. LOL! Hahahahaha~ Damn embarrassing! Because the guy behind us eventually he did look at us when my friend scold me "son of a b****" Hahahaha! JOKE OF THE DAY!

Woah~ A long post! Alright, time to take a shower and sleep. Good night!

Brother

2010-10-24T06:01:00.003+08:00

I really get confused by the word "brother". Is it all my fault for not understanding my brother? Am i supposed to expect what my brother thinking all the time? Do they understand what i'm trying to say before they argue with me? I do not know how to express or they do not understand what i said? There is too much conflict. I think nobody treat me as brother at the same time they think i treat them not as brother. All the time who contributes more does it matter? I don't think so... No matter how much u contributed to them, if your personality is not as good as others, end up they wouldn't care how much u contributed. I believe i did contributed, but i'm still below the standard, why? Because i do not have a good personality. Thus, in order to have people treat you as brother, you need to understand your brother, you need to contribute and last but most important, you need to have good personality. So you will be more favorable by your brothers.

I'm a straight-forwarded person, i do not wish to be straight forward when i knew the consequences is not positive. I've already know the result. Instead of agree with what i said, hate me for being so straight forward. If i explain to others instead of specific person, i get blamed as backstabbing. I really had no idea what should i do, i think i should just keep quiet and do not give any suggestions, even if i know what will happen next. Tolerate or continue be myself, i have to choose tolerate.

I have to find the actual meaning of "brother" again. This is not what i want and what they want from me. I can't feel what they gave and they don't know what i can give.

Once again, forgive me for my rudeness and straight forward words.

Sick Again

2010-10-14T01:30:00.005+08:00

Went to the clinic today, they took my blood, the worst thing is, the syringe full of my blood, they throw half away and another half to analyse. WTH?! Waste my blood! LOL!
The doctor said i lack of platelets. The transparent liquid for wound clotting. It is because sequestration in the spleen (cirrhosis of liver). Means smoke too much la... XD
And i just realized that college/university students are not supposed to get Medical Cert, we are only allowed to get Time Slip, but my mom get smart after the appeal with written letter to retake exam not approved by Taylors office, she insisted to get MC from the doctor instead of time slip. So lucky i got MC, or else lecturer like Mr.P and Ms.M tak puas hati.
Haha~ I think i never went to government clinic quite long already... I found this PINK anti-biotic... I was like *Woah~ Cute medicine~!* To be honest, i first time see such cute colored anti-biotic. I use to take the red and black capsule. But this is RARE! XD

And thanks to all my friends who are really concern about me. Thank you very much =) i'll try my best not to infect you guys XD

Dear Hater & Supporter

2010-10-12T04:22:00.003+08:00

Dear haters, please do hate me but not disturbing me. I wouldn't care about how you comment about my English standard. And also i wouldn't forgive for your usual "perasan-ness" and rant in my blog and scold me for writing such easily-you-get-offended post. Take it or leave, i do not have any intention to teach like a master or speak like a Demi-god, its about whether you agree or not? Simple and clear enough? You disagree with my post then go ahead and impress me and enlighten me please. Or else no matter how hard you disagree by insulting me in my blog or trying to humiliate me, go ahead as well.
Because i know who you are, as i said, girls are girlish can be also known as childish, so concluded with = ill-tempered. You happy or not? I DON'T CARE, you wanna admit it, just go ahead.

From now onwards, those who are not happy with me and trying to argue with me out of a sudden or randomly, please do stay away from me, i do not want to argue with you.

For the rest of my loyal readers or my best friends, i appreciate for being such supportive. And thanks for motivate me to continue writing this blog. Whether is a hate speech or my current life story, you guys still read about it and concern about it. Especially D.CH and Jz.C =)

霎時感動 210

2010-10-12T01:56:00.001+08:00

This what we should do, i tried my best but the result disappoint me badly.

Headache

2010-10-09T02:16:00.002+08:00

I've been headache since i sick, before midterm, during mid term, resit exam and assignments. I'm so bloody busy, but now im getting free, i left 4 more assignments to do and 3 of it are group assignments. By the time i done with the assignments, it's STUDY WEEK! Time for my FINAL EXAM, last semester FINAL EXAM! I'll end this foundation! Then it's time to go for vacation, Australia here i come~ I've been living in Malaysia for 19 years without stepping out of Malaysia, it's time for me to explore more and learn more in a relax way.

I realized i've been through difficulties/conflict with girls, not to mention who but if you really do concern about it then i'll tell you privately. Girls are really really complicate, confuses me in all kinds of way. Especially when they get pissed off and release their anger or in a better form of anger, they express unhappiness on me. Like as if i knew what is going on like that? Come on, make it fair, i wouldn't know you are having difficult "period" or you are not in a good mood, i couldn't predict what and when you are moody. I don't assume such detail things, cause im not a particularize person, i don't take things small and non sensitive things seriously. If you are trying to make a small issue sensitively, then i am sorry, i really don't understand whats wrong with you or whats going on with you.

For those who knew me for a certain period, may i know do i ever fail or disappoint you guys? Do i treat you guys like nobody? I believe i treat my best friends with true heart and trust, i do not wish to be deceptive towards my friends, and please do forgive my straight-forward attitude without thinking of your feelings. It hurts your feelings, you may hate me badly, but i hope at the same time you understood what i'm talking about and then that's enough, you may continue hate me. I'm satisfied with what i did and i passed in my own conscience.

The chinese sayings, "conscience cannot be eaten" meaning being good or bad won't gives you benefit, even food got its value, but conscience is worthless. I agree with it but most of the time i take it seriously in order to make myself feel better, i don't feel and regrets. Only when issues that is beyond my control, i'll only try my best, if i think it is enough continue trying or i realized i'm wasting my effort. The words "give up" will pass through my mind. Then i shall stop it.

Rant of the week.

Ethically, Morally And Conscientiously Correct

2010-10-05T04:58:00.003+08:00

We don't expect people to act like how we want them to be, but we want them to act like how people act commonly and act morally right.
Same goes to ourselves, we don't act like how people want us to be, but we should act like how people commonly be and act morally right.

When they can't act like how we want them to be, then let it be, try to be more like a badass, downgrade our conscience perhaps we will feel better between others. They have the conscience and responsibility to judge what is good and what is bad.
Same goes to ourselves, if we can't act like how people want us to be, then let it be. We should have conscience and be more reasonable enough to judge what is good and what is bad.

The only thing that pass through my mind is "self-censorship". That is something like that, an example for Ethically, morally and conscientiously correct.

There's a Chinese saying "if you don't listen to the elders, it is your loss". Why listen to the elders? The elders in this quote not just because they are elders and we should respect and obey what they said, but the elders in this quote actually shows the meaning of elders have more experience than us and they have been doing the same thing COMMONLY, this is why the word "common" appears as well, its a fact that we cannot change. So when the elders or experienced people advises you, listen and try your best to change. No one to force and no one to blame, end up it is all your decision, its a "take it or leave it" option. But remember one thing, after advise have been given but it is not followed by us, do not feel regret and blame on others, this is the result of our decision made at the first. Never ever and EVEN mention about blaming others when we did not follow the guide at the first and cause regrets in the future.

Simple example, when the society says smoking is bad for health, it really meant it. But people who doesn't care about it: end up when they get sick, they can't blame the existence of cigarette or the friends whom advised them not to smoke, or the government for not banning the cigarette. It demands by themselves, so who else to blame except themselves?

You don't expects, predicts or assumes things should work like how you expected to be. Accidents happens. Self egoism happens. You might think differently from this society, and it is proven wrong, so accept it and don't argue with it, when you argue with it, means you are argue with the public, the common ones.

Rumah Hope

2010-10-03T18:53:00.002+08:00

Went to the orphanage house for Moral assignment. It's a bit tiring and headache but i really had fun with the kids and i can see and understand how they survive under an environment without their parents. Some are naughty, some are able to control themselves. Whenever i cannot stand with their naughty moves, i remind myself there is a reason behind them, in the end, the reason of why they act like this because they does not have a proper parent's guidance and disciplines. They can live freely unlike us controlled by parents but TOO early at their age. May God bless these children, let them live happily and enlighten their future.

AND, i also realized that having my own children is not EASY at all! Now i've changed my decision, i would like to have a daughter instead of son! Or else i'll rather be an old monk not gonna marry until i die! LOL! These little naughty fella really got hot temper, some girls got hot temper as well. I'm talking about the nice and cute little girl whom can be naive enough to be a nice girl. Say no to the boys man~ >.<

I'm lucky enough that i prepared myself for this. It happened latter than i expected. Go ahead guys =)

Regenerating

2010-10-01T17:53:00.002+08:00

It's been a while again~ Why? Because started since last week i've been fell in sick until now and clashing with the mid term as well. I am so goddamn relieved that i settled with my mid term and left the one and only sickness, bad cough. At least i do not have to torture by headache or sore throat anymore, just cough like an old man only.

I just realized one of my friend can actually sing so well, though we are not close but still can make it. I now introduce you guys Jess Lim Sue Li , sorry for the bad quality video XD im gonna ask her to make a clear version then i promote her! She's really good at singing and i just realized that O.o I really admire good singers no matter they are artist or not, as long as anybody can sing well, i'll definitely enjoy their singing. Though i'm not a good singer XD

EQ 和意志力

2010-09-17T20:05:00.002+08:00

人总会有无理取闹的时候，但是不要太过分，更不要每次给同一个借口，例如：来＂那个＂，心情不好，不爽，不顺眼等等。无理取闹就是无理取闹，控制不到EQ就承认掉它，是你朋友也会了解。

心想要什么就是你要什么，为什么要抵赖？为什么要逼人家替你说他要，你要的东西？倒不如干干脆脆大声讲出来？

当我亲眼看到某些事实的时候，才发现人是多么的腐败，请不要感到被侮辱，只是要表明我对这些事的看法和感想。看到好朋友和朋友在毒品的诱惑下让他们感到兴奋和不清醒时，心里有够不平衡的。。。只可以感到很心寒和无奈。劝了又劝，只收到一个令我忘不了的反应＂你是不会明白的＂，又再次感到失败和无奈。

老实说我也许不明白他们的心情，但我很清醒地明白＂戒不到＂根本就是借口！除了白粉以外，所拿的毒品都是为了个人的满足（爽？兴奋？刺激？）而已。我相信有心一定能阻止腐败下去。

我坚持不相信任何虚伪，没有根据的话，甚至宗教。除了有关运气的事情，我只相信只要意志力够强，没有办不到的事。

Failure is a proof that desire wasn't strong enough.
只要有恆心，铁杵磨成针.

以上本人经验若令您有所误会和感到被冒犯的,请多多见谅。纯粹只是本人发言的意见和感想而已。
要吵架，要打，要杀的就走远点。谢谢。

Lesson learnt?

2010-09-15T03:50:00.003+08:00

In order to layan my kawan (so called loyal readers la XD). I'm here to blog what we should have learnt after THIS incident.

We don't give up our pride to please others and satisfies other's satisfaction. Think of what is the limit, what can we do or sacrifice for our friends? We don't sacrifice our life, money and time for things that are not worth for us to do so, or people/friends who doesn't deserve what we have been doing for them. Thus, how are we going to prevent unnecessary sacrifice? First, we try to please them. Then check out the result, if you think it is worth to do so, then go on. Or else, think about what are the consequences and what are the ethically advantages for you or your friends.

I personally think that, we should set our mind right. With strong persistence on decisions made by ourselves, you dont get mindfucked(brain wash) by friends who threaten you with friendship or any relationship. Stay strong and be more confident with what you had decided. For instance, your friends planned to skip the next class and your attendance are like 4 absentees out of 8, and you are gonna get warning or warning letter will be send to your house. And your so called good classmates are trying to ask you to skip the next class with them, OR ELSE they will show you "fuckface" or "pattern". So, in this case, to continue your studies is more important? Or absent having fun with your friends, and ready to risk for a warning letter from the college admin? Think about it, if they are your GOOD friends, they wouldn't mindfuck you to skip the class OR DUMP YOU ALONE in the class.

Categorize your friends, who are trustworthy and who are not? Who are purely classmates and who are the best true friends? You dont simply blend them together under 1 category, just like liquors and cokes; you don't mix Baileys with Coke, don't you? The result of mixing Baileys with Coke is in the toilet; just like you knew it, and you are ready to get a warning letter from the college yet you are still doing it.

若要人不知，除非己莫为
Meaning, if you doesn't want anybody to know about bad things you had done, THEN DON'T DO IT!
Nobody is forcing you to do foolish things like asking you to suicide or any crime with a gun. They only mindfuck you and show you their pattern. That's all, why do we have to concern about selfish friends since they NEVER appreciate what you had done for them?

A simple example tonight, not to mention one's name and just an example that everybody knows about it and yet they are doing it. I tried to call my friend twice until the caller ring tone ends, and he is not picking up my call. And my phone is out of battery, so without hesitating, i called his girl friend try to get him. Less than 3 minutes, my friend call me back and almost scold me, not to call her girlfriend anymore in a bad attitude, because at the moment they are having argument. Is this my fault for calling her girlfriend to inform him, to call me back and im out of battery? If you knew i was trying to call you, instead of getting emotional, why don't you inform me? At least a text message?

NOTE! This is only a SIMPLE example. The worst scenario is one will try soooo hard to cover what he did and put the blame on others except for himself. I think this is the way to protect his reputation among friends, by framing/mindfuck/ignore/show pattern towards his friends? THIS IS HOW YOU PROTECT YOURSELF AND HOW YOU TREAT YOUR FRIEND? In this condition, you WILL NEVER enter my "best friends" category but only the chit chat normal friends category.

Learn to switch attitude and different style of speaking when you are facing different people, this is how you control your temper. You don't shout at your parents, you don't insult your soul partner's parents with vulgar words, you don't spoil other people's reputation especially about girl's virginity when you are having fun talking cock with your friends, this won't make you a better speaker or better friend to talk. When you communicate with mindfuckers/people with lots of patterns/selfish people and people who doesn't appreciates, in different kinds of attitude. That's how you won't get offended by them and understand why they treat you badly, improve your endurance to control your EQ's.

Finish my ranting, complaining and my bible talk. Lastly, do not get offended by the example i gave, just purely example. Take it or leave it but don't blame me.

Last Post

2010-08-07T18:02:00.003+08:00

This will be the 124th post, Which might be the last post.
Since no one is reading and she's not reading as well. And i got nothing to express myself in blog anymore.
I think i lost everything. I failed myself repeatedly. Not gonna look at my scar.
I live on my own.

Life goes on... Without you...

End Of Holiday

2010-08-01T05:59:00.003+08:00

Well, nothing special in this holiday.
As lifeless as usual. Oh yeah~ I passed all my goddamn semester 2 subjects. And get the same exactly CGPA from semester 1. This is the first good thing happened in this holiday.

2ndly, my sister back from Melbourne, Australia for her holiday. And the bad thing is i don't get a shit present from her T_T.

3rdly, i lost my phone in the cinema while watching "The Sorcerer's Apprentice" and now i recover my sim card, please do text me with your name so i can add you back into my contact list alright?

I've been watching movie for the past few days, i watched Inception 10.0/10.0(definition for "mindfuck" quote from Villi), Despicable Me 3D 5/10, i wasted rm17 to watch 3D, what a boring movie, i seldom fall asleep in cinema and i did while watching it, the trailer was great but the movie and storyline sucks and The Sorcerer's Apprentice 7.5/10 good magic effect and Nicholas Cage is funny.

When one's not calm, his IQ is totally zero. So this happened to me and Lun, he lost his CAR KEY while tumpang my car to other place, then both of us panic so we speed all the way back to his car but his car is locked with alarm system. SO, where is the KEY!? End up, he found his key at the place before we leave right beside my previous car park lot. == he's a lucky bastard. XD

To: One & Only
I wouldn't know did i missed anything maybe timing problem, but i DID express BEFORE to you. Perhaps i'm not obvious enough, but i wouldn't force you to know what's my feeling towards you.

I'm Back!

2010-07-19T02:53:00.002+08:00

The exam was Goddamn tough. Bloody Mr.Phang, refer to canadianboy101.blogspot.com old post to see who is Mr.Phang. He's an old single fart, who doesn't know how to teach us and no mercy in our final exam. English and Malaysian Media History paper who are able to kill students even though we tried our best to study. Ok ok, i know i'm a slacker, i admit it. But then even the rest of my classmate rant about it. Although they rant about it badly, but i'm not sure whether they act stupid or what. MAYBE?

Btw, i dont give a shit anymore. The exam is over. So f*** it.

I owe a lot people of FOOD. Japanese cuisine == Ice-Cream == and dinner ==
No idea how to belanja them. They always ignore me one. So i might as well ACT STUPID. XD Yeah! I'm gonna wait till someone remind me like how they chase debts from me, then i'll payback. Heee~ ^^V

I just realized holiday sucks, not to say i love study. But i'm so bored everyday doing the same thing, doing to the same place, meeting same people.

Ohh~ The first thing i do after final exam is to hit the club. Went Mist Club at Bangsar right beside MILK. Well, the environment not bad even it is in a FACTORY, but the people over there, SUCKS. Malays, Indians, Mediterraneans. AND, the guys dance with the guys, girls dance with the girls and blacks dance with the blacks (no offense/racism, as in no Chinese hot chick la >.<). From far away you will be able to see bunch of guys around few girls, they are more like molesting rather than dancing with them. Like how i described Bamboo(Bamb99) at TTDI, compare clubs, i MISS BAR-CELONA. I don't care whether Bar-celona a lot of "lala" girls or what, sometimes even "lala" girl PRETTIER than other club's girl. Serious shit. Lastly, this is where and why makes me feel like quit going clubs, coz it's quite disappointing and boring >.<

If i can roll back the time, i wouldn't had give up on you.

Busy

2010-06-29T02:10:00.002+08:00

Dear loyal readers,
I will not be updating my blog until the end of my final exam. July 14th.

I'm very busy nowadays with assignments and i'm afraid of final exam because i only got 2 weeks to cover 3 subjects and add up all chapters around 30 chapters.

Lastly, i predicted England will lose to Germany. Just that i can't expect the result instead of 2-1 or 1-0 it end up 4-1.
And 2010 World Cup sucks... Thanks a lot to the referees... Bunch of corrupted ***holes...

World Cup

2010-06-13T05:09:00.002+08:00

Sorry peeps~ Been busy doing assignment, editing video. Damn it... I can't even get a good sleep...
I only could blame on myself for being such a dumb/good guy to help my friend to edit video even though the scene she took (to be honest)SUCKS. Took my whole night+midnight just to edit the music video with stupid scene and LIMITED duration because the duration of the song it's only 4min. While her scene/video is more than 5min. How am i suppose to make a 5min video fit into a 4min song? That was challenging... For 1 midnight. I hope she doesnt view my blog, even though she do, i still have to say this, i promised to help her edit the video and without any payback yet she is not cooperating with me, only text/call me for result. I will never help anybody that doesn't know how to appreciate my help anymore. I've been thinking non stop, why should i help her at the first? Then i realized that i help her not because of her, is because of her group. There's another 2 of my friend in her group, so i guess i "mindfuck" myself and remind myself that i'm actually helping 2 of my friend instead of the one who doesn't appreciate me. *Sigh* fuck it, fml. Soft hearted = NOT GOOD.

Okay, finish updating and my rants of the week.
It's time about the World Cup.
Before i go Jaafar, i went Piccadilly drink with my friends, not much but enough to be explosive.
Then went Jaafar for a stupid live match. Which is England vs USA. 1-1
Couldn't believe Robert Green(keeper of England) failed to HOLD a Goddamn ball. He slipped the ball into the net. WTF is wrong with him? He totally spoil my night. I was freaking hot and uncomfortable at Jaafar due to the alcohol flowing through my nerves + SOME reasons + the EPIC failed of the keeper = explosive
*Censored* all the way back home to release my anger, and calm myself.

When i reach my house gate, my phone rang, received a call from Lenard that someone is trying to make trouble with them, called for my assistance. So, i *censored* all the way there, before i reach there, i receive his phone call again, he told me settle already. Then i *censored* all the way back home AGAIN. I wonder is it the World Cup or England makes everybody so explosive. For me, yes. It affects part of me.

Tiring night. I need to take a bath and sleep now. Its already 5.30AM.

Good night my fellow friends.

Express

2010-06-03T01:47:00.003+08:00

Sorry to my loyal readers? Maybe nobody?

Im kinda busy nowadays... Assignment, assignment and assignment.

Nothing much to update~

I might not good at expressing myself, but it's in my heart. ♥

And i hope you can read through my heart. ♥

MELT

Hand

2010-05-24T03:11:00.003+08:00

What am i suppose to do to differentiate whether is both side of my hand working or not?

My outer part and my inner part of my hand, both sides are my hand.

What can i do to make myself better?

Cut my hand off? Leave it and rot? Or to medicate both side of my hand?

I knew my palm its infected with bacteria, but i look at another side and telling myself "the outer part still looking good, so my palm wouldn't be any problem". I should have take good care of my palm, instead of injured it and leave it infected by bacteria.

If my hand is rotten, i can't even do anything about it even though i'm trying to medicate it. But to cut my hand off.

So should i medicate both side of my hand before it is rot and i decide to cut my hand off?

My Birthday

2010-05-23T03:44:00.003+08:00

First of all, i have to say that i am not that good to express myself. But what i know is...

Thank you everybuddy who was there to celebrate my birthday.

And thanks a lot for the wishes.

I thank you guys from my bottom of my heart sincerely. Love you guys. Appreciate much.

I might annoyed any of you, i might hurt any of you, i might blame you, i might create troubles for you. Sorry and thank you for forgiving me. I'll try my best not to repeat any mistakes.

Special thanks and happy birthday to birthday kaki Kenny Chee who planned to celebrate you and my birthday with me.
And thank you Roger Ang for celebrating my birthday even though i failed to celebrate yours. I feel so sorry and thankful you are with me. Thank Brother.
Shin d'co-pilot who booked me earlier even though i knew u rmb my birthday wrongly XD

Last but not least, the first who wish me through phone at sharp 12am, Queen Lai. Thank you very much even though you didn't celebrate my birthday.

Queen Lai handmade this for me ^^

Pretender

2010-05-15T16:57:00.002+08:00

Thanks to my dad, my mom can be a pretender. Nice acting. So end up who's the victim? Me.
"Blardy hell you" and "TMD" back to you.

Boys dies for girls, while woman dies for man? You will know when you meet the same situation like my mom.

Dinner with Queen Lai

2010-05-15T04:13:00.002+08:00

Belanja Queen Lai dinner at Dragon-i as a birthday present i guess? Then went to ss15 Station One to have a drink and chat. Her birthday is on 13th of May... But then, Don't know who la har... Every year birthday also busy one... Last year's birthday is the worst one, she told me to delay till the weekend of her birthday week. And i'm such a good guy try to celebrate her birthday for her AGAIN but then she say i never book her earlier~ Like as if i have to call her secretary to book for her birthday celebrate like that... Damn sad already laa~ So this year birthday celebrate delay as well, but then getting better, delay to the next day of her birthday 14th of May == Better than nothing, or else she will say im the one who is heartless. HOR?

Well, i have to say that i spent another great night with her.

Sorry for scaring Queen Lai cause i almost bang a car coz of the car jam break for nothing so i have to jam break as well. Wtf... Thx to the unknown Proton Saga la...

Lastly, Happy Belated Birthday, Queen Lai. Hope you really do enjoy. =)

Fall For You

2010-05-13T17:53:00.005+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting.
Could it be, that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think, that I am trying.
I know you're wearing thin down to the core.

But hold your breath, because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you,
over again.
Don't make me change my mind.
I wont live to see another day,
I swear its true.
Because a girl like you is impossible to find.
You're impossible to find.

This is not what i intended.
I always swore to you, I'd never fall apart.
You always thought, that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start.

Oh, but hold your breath, because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you, over again,
don't make me change my mind.
I wont live to see another day.
I swear its true.
Because a girl like you is impossible to find.
It's impossible.

So breath in so deep.
Breath me in, I'm yours to keep.
Hold on to your words; 'cause talk is cheap' and remember me tonight when you're asleep.

Because tonight, will be the night, that I will fall for you, over again.
Don't make me change my mind.
Or I wont live to see another day.
I swear it's true.
Because a girl like you is impossible to find.

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you, over again.
Don't make me change my mind.
Or i wont live to see another day.
I swear its true.
Because a girl like you is impossible to find.
Tonight will be the night I fall for you!
Over again.
Don't make me change my mind.
Or I won't live to see another day!
Because a girl like you is impossible to find.
You impossible to find.

What If?

2010-05-12T02:23:00.004+08:00

Now is my busy peak. FML~ Lots of assignment and i never seen such assignment before. 4k words+ assignment. And all have to pass up weekly from tmr onwards. Wtf~

I got lots of bullshit thinking in my head. What if~ What if~ and what if.

What if i can finish my assignment in 1 week? Damn man... Awesome~ I can relax everyday. I only have to study or so called scan the notes for my mid term without any worries about assignment.

What if i am qualified as her...... Then i will appreciate and thank God...

What if i get rich now? Im gonna get every stuff i want, then i will spend money sue/kena the polices who shot the 15 years old kid, polices who forces 2 woman to "flash" and polices who beaten up some locked-up dude. Kena them gao gao. Wtf is wrong with this society?

What if there is terrorist that only provokes the polices and challenge the polices? Like the Jackie Chan movie "New Police Story" so that the police won't so free to do these nonsense.

What if i know how Teoh Beng Hock died? Okay im out of my mind, thx to the goddamn assignment, and i felt sorry for him. How can a 30 years old+handsome+kind politician+with bright future died like this? Sigh~ Life's fragile ONLY IN MALAYSIA ==

What if emo can makes people feel better? Then i should back to my emo life and listen to emo songs. I will be feeling great...

What if she knows what i'm thinking? Not really good, coz i couldn't face the fact of MIGHT getting reject. T_T

What if she accepts me?! Then i'll swear i try my best to keep her with me as long as i can! =(

Okay... Enough dreaming and imaginations. I'm feeling good now. Coz, what if i'm dreaming and imagine? Then i will feel good! XD LOL

Tuning into - Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade

Abnormal

2010-05-02T03:42:00.003+08:00

Nowadays things have been changing, my health changing, my luck changing, my friend changing, even my CAMPUS changing!

Alright cut the crap above, im here with some reason, if you know i will write something here, then i guess at least you realized you did something in a not-good-way.

I love to observe people, especially friends around me. No matter through a conversation, a game, or maybe just looking at people. I learnt to observe how human act like and how some of them act like. And of course i believe in my taste bud, my angle and my instinct.

I don't know what happened, and i doesn't want to know that badly. Through surface, i think you are very discriminative, you are stubborn with what you thought of. You wouldn't think of how other think about it, and WHAT IF you are wrong in what you insisted? I doesn't speak out loud because i don't want you to feel embarrassed in front of friends, i'll stay calm and observe what you did and what you said.

I don't know is it a brainwash project, or you are born naturally to be like this. I never support of pampering people especially girls who are very bossy. Perhaps you can say you under PMS, but it is unacceptable when you show your PMS result in front of all of us. What's the feeling of your slave-like-boyfriend? How we think about you?

There is a lot of things we cant change it with our own ability, but we can hold ourself, change ourself to bare with it. Just do what we can do but not to force people to fulfill your wish or follow the way you are, you don't release anger on people... Its like violating human's rights.

How many times can people lose their precious ones? And then regret for what they did? Can they actually feel regret and turn everything back to normal? If we are made of glass, are we gonna recycle by melting it?

I'm tired of all these shit... Ask yourself about it, what had i done? Is it correct to be like this?

PAMPER PAMPER PAMPER... FTL... THESE PEOPLE JUST WON'T APPRECIATE.

The Moon Represents My Heart

2010-04-29T06:39:00.002+08:00

Its time to update the blog again~ Hang out with the friends again at ABC have some drinks and cock talking ==" And we realized the moon is actually covered with cloud in a circle. And and and! Theres rainbow with the cloud as well! Due to the reflections of the moonlight. That was super duper cool... I wish i could take that photo, then i'll DEFINITELY put it as my Desktop's wallpaper.

Classes are getting boring... Taylors Lakeside sucks badly... The food expensive, rumors food not nice. And it is freaking hot there, thx to the lake. And last but not least, it is SMOKE-FREE! Damn it... Everybody hates lakeside.

Sicked

2010-04-20T03:00:00.002+08:00

Its been a while i didn't fell in sickness... Why am i sick? I ain't no weak! Lots of friends saying that the reason i'm sick because i'm weak.

Its all started in a Friday night, i drank quite lot with my friend and in an unconscious condition playing online game is not a good idea. As usual, i played until morning 8am then i slept until next day afternoon 4pm. Saturday night, i play basketball under the rain and continue the midnight gaming habit until morning and slept till the next day AGAIN. And repeating playing basketball during midnight under the rain as well.

This is WHY i'm sick! Not because of WEAK! Aww~ My flu... I'm coughing my lungs out soon. Currently is coughing blood. Soon will be my lungs. Damn it...

习惯就好

2010-04-14T03:17:00.009+08:00

I hope i can get used to it just like the song... The lyrics... Love me or leave me...

You didn't love me and yet you don't wanna leave me,

so i chosen to leave you even though you affects me a lot.

Everything related to relationship that makes me feel not safe it is all because of you...

And thanks for teaching me these lessons. I learnt it.

I don't want any fate between you and me anymore...

歌名:习惯就好
歌手:罗志祥
作词:阿沁作曲:阿沁

你的手机又收不到
我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑你的温度
雨淋过几条街都散不掉

你面无表情的嘴角
像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看突然明了
爱过了使用期效你就想逃

我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲
继续做你唯一的城堡

习惯就好习惯就好
是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒

你的手机又收不到
我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑你的温度
雨淋过几条街都散不掉

你面无表情的嘴角
像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看突然明了
爱过了使用期效你就想逃

我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲
继续做你唯一的城堡

习惯就好习惯就好
是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒

习惯就好习惯就好
一个人在雨里继续的奔跑
却发现再也听不到自己的心跳
习惯就好习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我多一秒一秒

I'm an emo kid... And this is what you made me.

Boredom

2010-04-12T05:02:00.004+08:00

Its been a while i didn't update the blog, cause nowadays there is nothing special happened or any special outgoing. Maybe got one? But a very simple one, became 1-day-vegetarian with Miss. Tan See Yuen. Durh~ Had lunch at MG(Moon Garden's Vegetarian Cafe and Bakery) at Taipan (before KFC and HSBC building).

Damn im so boring, i can't wait the goddamn next episode of TVB drama.
Reverse psycho!! Today is Tuesday! I can download my drama NOW! T_T

Meaningful Email

2010-03-28T04:23:00.004+08:00

I received an interesting email shared by Ms.See Ying Bin.

No doubt. I'm TOTALLY agree with it... This is very meaningful. No offense to people who currently or always follows the below bad habits/bad thinking or disagree with it. Hope you guys read this and think twice is it true.

The tittle is "Chinese Wisdom".

Oh My God… Humans always have lots of excuses….

沒錢的時候,想結婚；

有錢的時候,想離婚。

When without money, wish to get married;

When have money, wish to get divorced.

沒錢的時候,老婆兼秘書；

有錢的時候,秘書兼老婆。

When without money, wife becomes secretary;

When have money, secretary becomes wife.

沒錢的時候,假裝有錢；

有錢的時候,假裝沒錢。

When without money, act like rich man;

When with money, act like poor man.

人啊，都不講實話：

Man, O Man, never tells the truth:

說股票是毒品，都在玩；

說金錢是罪惡，都在撈；

Says sharemarket is bad but keeps speculating;

Says money is evil but keeps accumulating.

說美女是禍水，都想要；

說高處不勝寒，都在爬；

Says women are trouble-makers but keeps desiring them;

Says high positions are lonely but keeps wanting them.

說煙酒傷身體，就不戒；

說天堂最美好，都不去!!!

Says smoking & drinking is bad but keeps partaking;

Says heaven is good but refused to go.

過去把第一次留給丈夫；

現在把第一胎留給丈夫。

In the past, woman gives man their virginity;

Now, woman gives man their newborn.

鄉下早晨雞叫人，

城裡晚上人叫雞；

In the rural area, chicken calls man awake;

In the cities, man calls for chickens.

舊社會戲子賣藝不賣身，

新社會演員賣身不賣藝。

In the past, famous actresses will not sell their bodies;

Now, actresses will sell their bodies to get famous

人生是什麼?

What is life about?

1 歲時出場亮相

At one, YOU are the top priority

10 歲時功課至上

At ten, academic excellence is the top priority

20 歲時春心盪漾

At twenty, getting laid is the top priority

30 歲時職場對抗

At thirty, a good career is top priority

40 歲時身材發胖

At forty, keeping your body in shape is top priority

50 歲時打打麻將

At fifty, beating others at mahjong is top priority

60 歲時老當益壯

At sixty, keeping IT up is top priority

70 歲時常常健忘

At seventy, remembering something is top priority

80 歲時搖搖晃晃

At eighty, moving around is top priority

90 歲時迷失方向

At ninety, knowing directions is top priority

100 歲時掛在牆上

At 100, having your portrait on the wall is top priority!

祝大家愉快，好好做人!

Wishing you all happiness! Be good!

Holiday updates

2010-03-25T02:12:00.004+08:00

First of all, i'm happy that i passed my first semester.

Went up Genting(class trip) with my awesome classmates =) Theres a bit conflict which only few people knows about it. Theres a quote "money hurts relationships" and that's a truth.

Since i'm lazy to copy photos and upload. You may refer to my Facebook to see some photos and videos they took in Genting.

Nothing serious happen until we was on the way back to Genting, i drove my car down from Genting quite fast. So i break many times and hardly during turning, result is i LOST my break! LOL! But then no worries, i lost my break causes the break over heat. Well if mom knows about it, im dead! The moment i stop my car aside, all the smoke came out and it stinks! So we have a smoke break while waiting the damn break to cool down. Cool? LOL!

For people who never fails or falls, you should fail! Then you will be able to fall down and then stand up. Always remind yourself you CAN fall! Because you know how to stand up AGAIN. I stand on the high peak before, and i fell down from the high peak before, so falling or failing it's not a big deal for me anymore. Bare with it, and you will become stronger and stronger. Look forward and walk, do not walk backwards but look at the past and learn.

Thinking

2010-03-13T05:46:00.003+08:00

Actually there is a lot of things we don't know, doesn't meant by saying your own way meant to works for a lot of people... Sometimes we don't say it out coz of some personal reason, doesn't means u understand the actual situation. There is a lot of thinking like judge-by-cover, naive, egos and experiences.

I have to say this, people who judge by cover without perfect reason or evidence, they don't know what happened but they just split it out without knowing the actual story. End up it became some sort of back stabbing or talking bad about others which psychos the listeners as well. Coz what you saw or what you heard its NOT what you experienced, but just rumors, your own thinking.

While naive, things happened is not just what u think THAT simple. Its either you haven't get mature enough to reach the stage to think something deeper and more complicate. Or you "simply" think, in another word, its either you are ______ or you think without _____ fill in the blanks yourself.

Egos? Dominates the question/answer, host everything, decide everything, end up can even give up the problem you facing and let the others to help you to finish the undone work. When you said something, you will insist you are right, UNTIL proven that you are wrong, you won't feel sorry about it.

Experience is what i wanted to listen, there is no other better answer than you experience it yourself, and i will insist or fight till the end about the experience/facts i knew. I don't say it out because it is private and personal doesn't meant i never been through it. If i don't know about it, i don't act like i knows about it, i will rather listen what you said no matter it is true or not. I don't care and i won't answer anything. Till i truly know the answer by myself(own experience).

I'm a straight-forward person, i don't crap or cock when i'm serious, the above writings, its all about my OWN EXPERIENCES. Take it or leave it. Perhaps any of you might not agree what i wrote, but i'm sure someday any of you will understand or been through some part of it, even though its not all correct, but at least 25%? Thats the only thing i can guarantee...

Relieved

2010-03-08T17:46:00.003+08:00

Great~! 2 out of 3 subject exam over already. Left one tomorrow which is IT, i take it as im on the holiday already! YAY~ Damn the exams! Pray hard i won't fail my Human Comm... For people who know me very well... First of all, i NEVER study since standard... 6 or 5? i guess... LOL~
But this time i tried to study SOME. XD Better than never study rite? XD
If C above which is get A. I will buy red firecracker and burn all over the Taylor already... Hahaha~

Coz i know i wont get A, not to say i dont have confident, i know where is my level. I know i sucks XD Oh well... Who cares? As long as i know cukup makan then can already la...

Damn sad lo~ My so called "Goddess" makes me emo sial~ lol
As i said, SEE, SYOK then SIAM. Learn how to pick it up and learn how to drop it as well... Perhaps i admire her because how she act like, the way she talk is very straight forward, makes me feel more secure to communicate with her, make friends or maybe my pet sister i wouldn't mind also coz she is c... LOL~ Addition she got boyfriend and i'm not a spanner/wrench as well... So yeah... Let it be...

I hope "people" are going to Genting... Not everybody know what im talking about... LOL

Barriers & Problems

2010-02-21T06:42:00.003+08:00

I never ask anything from you. I just wan you back to the right path. Even though you insisted not to listen to me. Persist what you persisted. I'm still here to help you. But now you deeply disappoint me. First, you made a promise with us, you break it. Then we gave u chance, and yes you did it. But you start another one, and YET you still telling us you didn't. I know you did. Even though you lying, i act like nothing, i know pride and dignity is very important to you, so i didn't make you feel embarrassing in front of me.

You know that in your bottom of your heart, i didn't force you to change your decision, i only give u hints. But you misunderstand me. Every time we argued last time, it's because of misunderstanding. I don't know if i use "stubborn" to describe you is it suitable, perhaps i am stubborn as well, but why should i being stubborn because what you did? Even though everybody know that you stubborn for things that you shouldn't stubborn, what can we do? If i say in front of you, i know you will react in a negative way. I guess you will totally disagree that yourself is stubborn, and then i'll get f**ked up by you.

I care for you 10 times better than anybody i care for... Until i noticed that you've changed. I cannot assume how you changed, but you changed in a negative way. You suddenly became another person. And i suddenly lost you. The distance between you and me is getting further and further. Why? Why these things only happened between you and me? Why not others?

Around 3 hours ago, even when i'm bathing, i worry about your future. When are you going to study? When are you going to work? And when are you going to stop the bad habits? I don't know whether you know what i told my mom or not, i told my mom about your situation every time you met issues or moving to the wrong path, even my mom concerns about you when she heard what i told her.

Last but not least, i don't get any benefits or advantages from you, i never hope you are as perfect as anybody. I only wish to having back the brother i love, the one last time who hangs out with me almost every day, the one who gave laugh to all of us and gave us infinite fun.

Recall

2010-02-18T04:55:00.003+08:00

When something reminds me about you and me. Suddenly i just had some mixed feelings. Main one, heartache. Not as hard as suffocating. Just feeling expressing out in this post. I wanna see you again.

I wonder do you actually think before why i threat you in a different way, which is more than 'friends'? I hope you know, but i guess you never know. Cause you didn't expect the truth would be like this.

Emo-fied. Emo sial. >.<

My 2010 CNY

2010-02-17T13:01:00.002+08:00

This is a worst cny i ever had coz of my dad. He provoked me in some small matter twice a day WHILE i was sleeping. Shouting me up while im sleeping it's not the way u wake me up. Bastard ==

Went back to Yong Peng, Johor as usual. There is soo boring. I guess i left a pack of my O-type-blood at Yong Peng, damn those mosquitos. Piff...

Last but not least, Im happy that you spent your time to entertain me. Even though i dont get wat you're thinking. But i wish you thinking what im thinking.

Happy Chinese New Year To Everybody And Wish You Guys May Healthy And Prosperous In This Year.

You gave me the strongest feeling.

But i reject with everything.

Its because i had a bad past.

I'm not asking anything from you.

Just to have a contact with you.

Even though it's just a voice, a face or a writing.

Happy Birthday Jie!

2010-02-05T02:52:00.002+08:00

My lovely jie jie Happy Birthday! =)

Wish you good luck in studies and relationship! XD

Time to update

2010-01-31T01:53:00.002+08:00

Boring~ Nothing much to talk about also~ Hows my life in Taylor? I guess the environment is nice, my classmates are friendly, but no leng lui, only got leng zai like me... KIDDING LA SWT~
Assignments so far so good, i lost 10 marks because of the menopause-d lecturer. She said i late pass up without Medical Cert will be deduct 10 marks which is 10 marks left only. Bloody hell~

When feel very boring in class, i can get Jenhao's PSP which borrowed to ChiLun, and play! XD But still very boring. Life's bored. What to do...

I don't wannna love the same kind of people . . . . . . But i think i did it everytime. FXXK.

Accident

2010-01-19T23:37:00.003+08:00

Today had an accident while tzekai and me in chi lun's myvi, we are on the way from Rack Cafe(SS15) through Taylor Business School to JS.

A crazy driver with the phone, bronze toyota Altis WPW 283 try to turn before us by using our right lane(opposite car's lane) without signal as well, unfortunately we turn earlier than him, he cant make it coz our car had already turned in even though we turn wider but we reach first. There's a jam break for him. Then he is not happy with it, he decided to kacau us by stick his car very near to our car's back. Then a hump in front give chi lun a chance to jam break, now the driver didnt break all he can and kiss the back of our car.

He came down from the car and check out then look at the damage, then he suggested to park aside, then chi lun walk to his driver car door, that bastard unlock the door then push it hardly towards chi lun, chi lun hit by the door and then he got pissed off, chi lun push the driver which is an indian/mangali Singh. That bastard try to push chi lun again, just when they are struggling, i saw a car behind didnt slow down and drive on, after the car passby chi lun fell down ON THE ROAD, then the guy start the fight by pressing chi lun on the floor, then chi lun swing him over and press him back on the floor. Without hesitating, i quickly ran over there and whack the fellow who is pressed by chi lun. Then the Singh stood up and try to punch tzekai's face, at the moment, both of them slow down, the singh swing his punch slowly while tzekai squad down slowly to evade his attack. LOL~ Sounds so matrix. He missed his attack then he ran over opposite road and look blur. Then i shout at him ask him to continue our fight, dont think we are students then we get bullied easily.

LOL~ Coward, he dare to start a fight with us but he doesnt wanted to continue now. He walk into his car and drive his goddamn car ran away, then we go for police report at USJ 8, took us 3hours+ phew~ This is our government efficiency? I guess? LOL~ Like the namewee insult TNB National like that. But i hope the police will do something towards that bastard driver.

I only fight for people who i care, i only fight for justice. Im gonna work out at gym more often, at least next time shit things happens, i'm not gonna act like nothing.

Secrets have been visiting me since last week, i think the world is in mass changing. Everything around me seems unpredictable and unbelievable. Well, the only thing i can do is to accept the facts. Damn it... I dont know what had i done, and dont know why they did it. (dont ask ==")

Depression

2010-01-08T04:25:00.002+08:00

I got no idea why am i getting moody and frustrated...

Im very imbalance right now... What am i suppose to do when my family doesnt support me taking Mass Comm? What can i do when i accidently bang my car towards divider? Im gonna get crazy soon... For now i just feel like study and dont give a shit about anything... I really hope so... Right now im a walking dead. I got no money, no pocket money, i dont have a normal car, im not studying, my daily meal once a day, i sleeps at morning wakes up at evening, i dont get any respects by family. What am i? Who am i?

Im lucky to have friends, brothers. And of course the queen. I need supports... Very tired... I've been thinking like this since 2 years ago. Now i fallen into this condition again... How am i suppose to survive? What am i gonna do to survive? Give me some goddamn luck and advise please~

Im lucky to hear your voice.

Sweet Dreams Or Nightmare?

2010-01-07T16:52:00.002+08:00

Its been a while after new year i didnt update my blog. First of all, happy new year to you guys, and repeat my wish happy birthday to Felix Teoh my bradder. XD

High school students had started their classes, while the course i wanna take is gonna start as well, but my mom and bro is try to stop me for taking it coz THEY THINK im not suitable for mass comm. So, i had already tried my best to convince my mom, if they dont wanna accept. Then so be it, i feel like being a lifeless ones better than asking them to let me study. Hope to see my friends and jie jie at Taylor =(

I just had a dream, dont ask why i JUST had. I've been sleeping at the wrong time and for a long time. Its weird, i dont know why either. >.<
i dream of someone who i like wrongly, trying to hold my hand when crossing the road, after crossing the road, she and me notice she hold an indian's hand. LOLZ! But i dont care about it, i only treat her as my young sis. Then i bounce up from my bed, i felt lucky when i realize its just a dream. @@ PHEW~

For people who know who im talking about, please dont simply spread about it. You can ask me, but not spreading it. Thx.

End of 2009

2009-12-31T05:20:00.002+08:00

Oh man... My last day of 2009 sucks badly... I had a sore throat. Damn... I wanna eat someone's voice to feel better, more peace. ^^
I wonder do you rmb.

I've been thinking whether should i ask someone out, but i guess end up i'm not going to end my 2009 with someone. =/
Perhaps im a coward... Oh man... Han Yang Han Yang... Why don't u enlarge ur guts and ask her out? You dumbass ==

Ok, i've been talking to myself since the bro's asked me to play mahjong. Every time mumbling towards the mahjong~ Im nuts~

Wish you guys had a great ending of 2009 and a brand new life and resolution in 2010.

Christmas

2009-12-26T09:05:00.002+08:00

First of all. Wish all of you had a great Christmas. Merry Christmas.
New year is coming soon, are u guys ready for 2010?

Went look out point with the queen =) spent my night with her. Sry my friends who is trying to ask me out. But i promised that the whole night only for her.
I enjoy spending the night with queen. =)
Hope there will be next time.

Whole night never sleep, our Hean Hean asked for help. We the bro's rush to Ipoh for him. Hope we did the right thing, we didnt waste our effort.
180km/h not that bad isn't hoong? kai? XD

Just reach home after sending them all back, which is 9am+. Reach home around 9am. Got to take some sleep.

Im wondering how do you feel now girl... Wish to enter your dreams and give u happiness. I'm missing you right now......

Joke Of The Day

2009-12-15T03:10:00.002+08:00

Its another cool week for me. Damn the monkeys(Kai and Hoong)

First Joke
Kai trying to break a straw by clapping both hands, so chi lun is trying to imitate him, but failed. Kai told him cannot be like that, it should be like this(he just order a/an ais kosong) then *clap* ais kosong all over his pants. LOL Hoong, Lun and me laugh like monkey XD

Second Joke
All of us including Justin, Hoong, Lun, Kai and me. 5 of us, we were at Eclipse Cyber Cafe, after games, we came out and it is heavy rain, so we decided to enter Hoong's car which is in front of the cyber cafe then only we decide where to go, so Hoong enter his driver seat, lun quickly enter the back seat then following kai enter, i'm not stupid, so i follow them as well. Left justin shouting "How about me?!", there's no umbrella, so he trying to pull his shirt up end up he give up and just run to the left of the car enter the passenger seat. LOL~ evil kai and lun asked hoong to lock the door when he approach the door. LOLOLOL~

Third Joke
Sunday was Hean's birthday, all of us got nothing to do walking around the lorong, gather at there. So they cheat someone to put his small finger up and the rest cover their eyes (You will able to see ghost for 3 seconds, is a lie). So Edward and Jeralynn got cheated and close their eyes and cover with their hands with the smallest finger point up, here comes the birthday boy's nose placing his nose hole in their smallest finger. LOLOLOL~ I laugh until roll on the floor. LOL

HON everyday, Left 4 Dead 2 everyday. >.<
Yup, you can call me lifeless. @@
Btw, CONGRATS to all SPM students. You guys now are free from high school. Yay for you guys T_T not for me T_T
Well, tired after change flatted tired for Hean Hean's car. I need a bath and HON! Wait for me guys! >.<

Conflicts

2009-12-06T04:07:00.002+08:00

Now, the real isolation begins.

It was YOU who made all of us into this situation and condition.

Im disappointed on you.

Everything totally f***ed up by you. No one to blame.

Go ahead and get crazy and mad at everybody.

You break down all friendship. I dont care is it misunderstood or any bullshit reasons. You started the fire at the first, either u renew everything, or u burn yourself together.

Bye bye. Was-my-friend

Refresh

2009-12-05T07:11:00.002+08:00

As you can see my blog gotta change a new look. LoL~ Yes, u are in Thom's blog. No mistake.

First of all, no offence for what im gonna write in this post.

Over-react and getting sensitive its a mental problem, so i would like to say "just **** it..." It is all about excessive, extra, unneeded mentality.
Which is = bullshits.
It only drag us, giving us burden. Then what for to being over-react and sensitive?
Everyday suspecting your friends and people around you? And then straight showing them ****face coz of suspicious?

If someday you saw your love ones(boyfriend/girlfriend) blinking eyes at others, at that moment are you going to push him/her away and slap him/her without asking him/her for explanation? WHAT IF, your love ones WAS JUST blinking eyes while passing by a guy/a girl COINCIDENTLY coz of dust flew into his/her eyes?

If that really happens, there is a lot of people getting slap everyday. LOL~

Since it is about coincident, misunderstood and small problems caused by too sensitive and over-react, i dont see too sensitive and over-react makes u feel better.

But here, i want to let someone to be sensitive and over-react, change her mind now and need her to know that she should over-react in re-correct what she is currently thinking.

If you are continue going to emo and unhappy about that incident, then i shall die repeatedly. Because, the same thing happen to me as well, I am included in that incident and worst than yours. So, if you know you are the "you" in this post, i hope u clarify things and search for answers before u assume, accuse and blame everything. Don't let things get worst and isolating friendships.

Be wise, my friend.

Gotta sleep.

Club?

2009-11-27T04:10:00.002+08:00

First time went to TTDI's club name Bamboo aka 6am6o9.

Very normal club yet very crowd, cover charge rm50 per person == so expensive. This makes me think that Barcelona VERY GOOD! Rm30 only, but usually we get "cop" from Barcelona then we re-cop on another's hand. XD

Went with jie's college friend and Jesz, all dont know how to drink? Or i assume they nvr went club before? >.<>.<

People who's inside Bamboo, their appearance much more better than barcelona, coz barcelona a lot uncle aunty and "seafoods" la la si ham balitong, u know...

Tiring, not drunk. Coz i got not enough sleep, and went roger's house work out at his condo gym facility. Now im still updating my blog here at 4.30AM. Im gonna become "God" soon ==

In this week, i tried things that i nvr try before. Whole day and night never sleep, went out with Hean until 6.30am straight to college for 8am class == and another day which is yesterday night till now i only sleep for 4 hours, somemore is after 8-9am class, sleep till 2pm == then work out from 6-7pm+ then dinner at 9pm == Straight away hit the club at TTDI Bamboo. Then settle all the mabuk mabuk stuff... In this short midnight, when i aws driving i passby 4 police car == as a guy whom drank enough to get caught or over alcohol limit. Im so lucky XD no need to blow 'whistle'(alcohol test).

Thats all for tonight. I shall take my sleep AT LAST. Nights.

Update

2009-11-10T02:02:00.002+08:00

I'm not ready to get under control yet... I'll prefer my current life, enjoy the night with friends and my lovely jie ^^

I should slow down my moves, enjoy every single moment in my life. Travelling around and explore different kinds of stuff. Try my best to get back my challenging life, fight through my studies.
Life's getting boring, but this is it. Borned to grow and achieve something proud, and leave without anything. Study>work> family then leave this world.

Perhaps i think too far or demand for more in my life.

To be realistic, money is important. By using money to enjoy majority of our life.

I dont seem to enjoy my life with a partner, maybe NOT YET.

Enjoy the process, and ignore the rest. Nights.

Long Lost Carrot ^^

2009-11-03T01:47:00.003+08:00

I found a pair of BIG white carrot at my yam cha nest. LOL

Guess where i got this pair of white carrot??

Who's white carrot? LOL

Next hint or you can call that an answer will be reveal on next week at http://skylonerx.blogspot.com/

Leave your answer at my chatbox. You will be rewarded! XD

Confused

2009-10-28T14:15:00.002+08:00

Its been a while i never update my blog eventhough im free, its because of thinking a lots of future plans, decisions, consequences... I feel guilty for mistreating someone, coz i dont wanna cheat both of us. I'll try my best to find back the real me. But not now.

Liar

2009-10-17T04:38:00.002+08:00

Everybody is a liar. Dont get over-react when i say EVERYBODY.

My lovely jie's ex-bf is a liar. My b... .....'s ex is a liar.

Haa... I guess im also a liar, i might cheated someone's feeling. @@ kinda confuse in my mind. Should i go for it? Or not? Zzz... >.<

For ppl who know/care about Justin and me, we are currently working at somewhere.......

Like a dog ==

Tiring~ 2nd semester starts next Monday, and yet im still hesitating to continue study 2nd sem and retake first sem or not gonna study? == Damn it...

I seriously need a break, i need time for my relationship == must quit my work as soon as possible~ I got my experience enough already, and knowing how good and bad consumer act like

Lemontini, COOL right Lun? XD

Bad Day

2009-10-10T04:35:00.003+08:00

I had been working for whole day, tired.

Yet i decided to go meet up with Jesz, Roger and Jie at look out point(Cheras aka Small Genting).

But i lost my way around hulu langat, while talking on the phone with King for guide to there, i drove around 100km/h accidently kena the mud hole which filled with water at my left, then i turn right try to back to my lane but slipped over the right lane(opposite car's lane), then i thought everything was fine till i was on the way up the hill, i heard sounds came out from the car, SOMEWHERE. I stopped by and check out. My tyre flatted ==" while changing tyre, roger, jesz and jie came down and help me to change the bloody flatted tyre with spare tyre.

I will never forget what my mom told me before i drive out, she told me not to drive fast, if not tyre "poncet" then you know. Ta Da~ Curse Succeed == Great~ wasted 2 hour to change tyre on middle of the hill. End up never go up, but yam cha with roger at Shauiya ==

*Sigh* shit incident~ Why on the middle of hill? Zzz~

Alcohol Again

2009-10-04T08:29:00.002+08:00

Mooncake festival not eating mooncake, but drinking black label == die cxck~ >.<

Kenny not steady~ Drunk d throw my slipper away == make me bare foot drive back~

Dont know what happen, i lost 3 slippers in this month. Zzz~ I lost my bro's spare slipper, my dog trash my slipper == and now Kenny thrown away my slipper! Kns~

Jesz and You Wei, we steady de ma! XD

We dont talk craps. We agree each other.

People who got problems, we know what's their problems. Keep in heart, only share with each other. Now i know, my opinion is not about only me, is more than 2.

Nice private chat till morning.

After the chat, other than proving myself that my opinion is not just me. Got lots of experience, topic such as flirt, immature, lonely and friends.

Knowing human are realistic, but knowing one's realistically, support of majority is needed. And i got it.

And of coz, we know we are steady. XD Yeah~

Advise

2009-10-02T01:16:00.002+08:00

I dont know my advise is it the best decision, but definitely not the wrong ones.

I dont give a shit to people who doesnt think, or non of my business and people i dont know.

But trust me, i ONLY give advise and my own very best opinion/experience to people who i care, good enough for me to care. I never hope people who i care getting emo or sad or angry.

If my advise between your decision its totally different, i'll try my best to lead you back to the right way and best way to solve problems. If not, i wouldn't care about what happen next that caused by you and end up by how. I'll leave it and never bother about it.

Persistent and pride is important, but is it that important till you think of revenge? Why not just use the persistent you got to prove yourself and the people you care? Or prove yourself that your pride still exist between you and people you care? People who doubt you, you dont have to stop them. Coz they are doubting the relationship between you and them.

There is a lot of problems that cannot compare with yours, example recently i got a call, that someone told me 'someone' got raped. Is that an insult? Or someone talking bad behind you is an insult?

Sorry that the truth hurts and it is ugly. And my words might be rude and rough or you can say totally rubbish. It doesnt matter to me, its about whether the people who receive it, can they accept it?

I'll still respect your decision. And you are still my friend i care.

Trust me, just live your life, you will feel a lot better.

August, October???

2009-10-01T13:52:00.003+08:00

As you can see, i did update my blog, especially i just update for yesterday.

And now i lost my whole september post. LOL~ Dont ask~ I dont care also.

Someone? i ASSUME/GUESS enter my blog, with BLOODY SIMPLE password XD

Someone i know? You know who you are~ I dont like to assume, if i did that, thats gonna be a special place in my heart JUST FOR YOU. But i wouldn't tell you. Someday you will know what had you did.

Happy Birthday Bro

2009-08-30T07:35:00.005+08:00

Justin the birthday boy~ Whole Malaysia celebrating his birthday pass soon. LOL~
30th of August

Nothing much to update recently. Yesterday went Genting AGAIN @@

LoL~ Nothing to do.

First Time

2009-08-23T11:29:00.002+08:00

Yesterday 1am first time drove up to Genting with hean and friends to chill out. @@

Luckily i'm not using the car im suppose to use la... LoL~ I dont want be the 1st Kembara accident at Genting. Lool~

On the way up to genting seriously very dark. There is no light provided, not only that, itu Hean punya friend should be leading the way but instead of leading us carefully, he speeding == leading change to chasing. For normal cars like Myvi,kelisa or kancil going up genting is not a problem, but kelisa and kancil cannot fetch people, definitely cant go up. Horsepower not enough, still fetch people sure "co-stun" lo... LOL. Really very lucky i drive benz, while Shinji driving Hean's Vios, Hean's kawan drive Perdana and Kenari. Surprisingly Kenari not bad still can climb up.

From downhill to uphill and uphill to downhill, so far so good. When driving up, turning quite difficult, coz cant see the road and the turning too curve need to step break continuously, cannot hold the break too hard while turning, must SLOW DOWN then only turn.
While going down very dangerous but exciting lo~ LOL~ keep left and right turning, got the initial-D feel. XD of coz i know dangerous, so there's a limit of speed for downhill around 100kmph.

Genting at night is DARN COLD~ I'm freezing up there. Everybody cold until hide inside stairs.

Nothing special. Just an experience of driving up to Genting. COOL~

Random

2009-08-15T04:57:00.007+08:00

Tonight i break the record in asia cafe pool. LOL~
The longest and expensiv-est pool of the day and i ever had.
Last time was not counted, it was RM40+ which included last players which is my brother Roger played then i continued it.

Today's pool
Ya Right~Thank Me And Hope I'll Come Again~ LOLZ~ Wth~

Dont misunderstand the below photo, its not 2 sausages. LOL
Actually is "Someone" ate spicy steamboat till his lips into like this @@ LOOOL~

妳

2009-08-08T04:45:00.003+08:00

傻瓜。。。

干嘛想到那么多。。。

只要你开心，就好了。。。

你的笑容让我感到安心，你的忧虑也是我的顾虑。。。

我关心的人不多，我真心关心的人更不用多说，

而你就在我的第一位。。。

无论是朋友还是。。都一样。。。

不要求任何东西，只要你伤心记得还有我。。。就够了。。。

Meaningful Songs

2009-08-03T16:44:00.002+08:00

第一次相遇回，感觉就像 "好久不见"。

刚见面时，好像 "七百年后" 的我和你。

我和你都好像在 "沉默的瞬间" 变得很陌生。

心想你 "可不可以爱我" ，

可是再想想我已经 "想太多" 了。

这时候 "听见有人叫你宝贝" 。

只好在 "１００种生活" 里选择 "低调" ，

做个 "寂寞先生" 。

看到 "心墙" 很想发泄就 "Beat It" 。

那个墙壁竟然是个 "会痛的石头" 。

打了以后感到 "于心有愧" ,

就连发泄都不可以，只好 "住在心里面" ，

告诉自己 "我没有错" 。

至少我会 "B.O.K" 。

"给我一首歌的时间" 我又写了很 "无赖" 的东西。

"谢谢"

^^

楼梯

2009-07-31T15:58:00.001+08:00

在一天早上才发现，
吃着东西和想着你的那一刻就好像在哽咽一样的难吞，
但再难吞还是要吞，

日子再难过还是要过，
就算拒绝依然还在守，
艰难的日子我陪你走。

普通的楼梯变成了回忆，
变成你和我连接的关系。
只是恐怕我不能找到你，
只好沿着楼梯走回下去，
我守护并没有别的意义。

命运一直都在掌握一切，
而我只能在这里被忽略，
直到你打电话给我了解，
至少让我好过多一点点。
。。。。。。。。谢谢。

无聊的我.

Lesson Of The Day

2009-07-30T03:09:00.002+08:00

I told myself not to spend time or effort to care about people who dont care and dont appreciate, for me they are immature. And i broke my rules today, tried to care, but as expected, useless~ waste time~ waste energy~ sore throat still wan talk so much~(waste saliva) And the worst thing is lie to me with a very shit excuse/explanation. I feel like i'm being humilliated.WTF~

Perhaps i dont know how to blend with ppl below age 17? I'll rather choose to know people who are elder than me than choosing people who are younger than me. My best example, My sister Muiiyee ^^(see i so good praising you, LOL)

OR

They havent grow up? Haven't link to some more-mature thinking???

I lazy to care already, maintain ignore and stick with "ignorance is bliss" is the best thing for me.
I'll rather ppl say me dont care or selfish than wasting my true care and effort. This is not caused by me, it is ppl who manipulate my mind, change my mind by words and actions, let me know that i shouldnt care and dont expect anything or pay any effort on them.

Well, what can i do? Let it be. . . Quote Shin " F*** it no time*

Hean : " Too stupid they dont know how to think, too smart they cheat you " you gotta agree.

Chinese Post

2009-07-28T01:15:00.002+08:00

人，本来就很现实，当感到寂寞就自然而然会找人陪。

而我，是否习惯被找来陪？

我还不知道。。。或许是我想太多。。。

那天听了她的遭遇，不知是否真假，当作我相信，从她家１１楼；一楼一楼地走下去，感到心疼心寒。。。真的真的好寒。。。

我真的不知所措，但看到她能活得平平安安，快快乐乐就好了。。。
我知道我不是她心目中的特别人物，但我依然会默默的守护你，陪你，无论你是有心还是无心找我，

我，心甘情愿。

03.低调 - 张栋梁

我的难过是如此低调因为不想打扰
我在寂寞的墙角努力的对自己好
你用微笑回报朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调傻子才会哭闹
就算你发现也好我想你一定会选择
假装不知道只怕我自己的掩饰不够好

Natural Phenomena's

2009-07-23T00:04:00.002+08:00

Heard any news about 22/7 morning 8 Sun-Eclipse? Its gonna happen in the next hundreds years. Too bad if you didnt saw it.

And of course our GOOD GOOD neighbour Indonesia, forest in fire. And what happen next? Blow all the smoke to our country la... Haze at our country, everybody sick now~ Headache, fever and SORE THROAT<--- BECAUSE CURRENTLY im having sore throat and slightly fever, thank you veli muchy la Indonesia. No more maid, increasing of indonesian migrate to Malaysia. KNS lo~

About the second match Manchester United VS Malaysia, i went to Bukit Jailil Stadium and watch, so-so only~ Because Manchester United giving Malaysia chances but Malaysia team didnt appreciate. Result is 2-0 Malaysia lose 9 9. Scored by Macheda and Owen the new #7. Due to laziness of uploading photos, please proceed to --->HERE<--- for photos~

Unlucky Day

2009-07-18T04:01:00.002+08:00

A very teruk outing today, i assume saw someone bad luck or someone who cursing~ Wtv~

First, my car no battery cannot start engine. THEN, on they way saw Chi Lun's car kena stopped by Police Car(Waja)(Second time kena stop) because chi lun turned his car quickly. Bo bian~ Rasuah RM30 let abang polis Lim Teh lo~ 2 words to describe, SUAI DAO~ Kelian Chi Lun~ Kena twice.

Additional, Adek Justin forgot to bring his IC when come out from his house, then i warned him later better dont sit chi lun's car cut police car again. Mana tau...... LOL~ Next time need to add "Touch Wood..." jor~

But afterall, i dont feel angry or moody, MAYBE, MAYBE AR, whole day i nvr eat, after filling something in my stomach i feel better? Thats why i think everything is small matter gua? LOL~ My limit of satisfaction very low only. I just need to eat, i just dont want the car break down at Sunway Pyramid, Adek Justin didnt kena invite back to balai drink coffee then very lucky already.

Thats my update for tonight.
Tata~